Kali Rune: Thoughts of a not so important teen

[Kali Rune]

Kali Rune: Thoughts of a not so important teen

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June 6th

What am i even writing on this journal? There's no point to it. I mean, come on, what's the point of it all. You just write about how your day goes, blah blah blah. Grr... This is stupid. Why am i writing? I feel like im going coo coo talking er... writing to a journal. Blah! Who cares, no one is even going to read it. Why have i started writing journals? I thought i only write lyrics?

xx Kali

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June 7th

Another day of writing? Blah! I guess there's no point in arguing...

Well, today is basically a day of boredness. There's nothing to do, no one to talk to but hey, i survive. I'm fine, well that's what i tell myself. Who would care anyways what ever happens to me? I mean, life is just... i dont know...Things suck. Life sucks but who cares what i think? Who cares about me at all?

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

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June 9th

Nothing interesting. Life has been boring, not that i want some meteor or something 'interesting' [destructive] to happen to me or anything. There was nothing, well almost nothing to do around. Why had there not been anything of interest happening right now? Was i choosen to live a boring and bad and well, unhappy life? At times i knew that i am happy but mostly im not. Why?

>>Pursuit of Happiness<<

Well, i guess that not everyone can have happiness. Well i dont know. Its just something that i need to find but how? I know that you cant just find it out in the towers. Sure, i can get high on candy or get hyper or happy because of my moodswings but really, that would not that long. Happinees just come in go for me. Why is that? I keep thinking that im doomed to be unhappy.

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June 10th

Well, how did today go? Today went by as almost like always. NOthing that interesting happened. I met a new person today but that's all.

There is nothing much to be said about today. I have not much thoughts, which is odd because at times, i have something in my mind. Well something, just thoughts.

btw, i've decided to ignore the whole 'its-crazy-writing-a-journal-about-how-your-life-goes-because-nobody-would-care' thing. There's no point being all like 'why am i writing here' when i am writing here. It just seem so crazy/odd writing in a journal and just....talking.

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June 17th

Its been awhile since i have written. It probably because there's no point in writing about my boring life. Every day you do almost the same things. Wake up, eat, go to class, and sleep. Sometimes you may just talk to friends or be sad all day or maybe just listen to music but there isn't anything more that happens. Why is that? Would you rather have a plain boring life that's just really simple or a complicated life full of problems? Many people would choose the boring life but what would it be like for them? What would they do? Of course they could always find something of interest to do but can i?

xx Kali

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June 18th

So basically there's nothing much going on but i tell you, the maze is NOT the best place to go. You know those hedges [im not afraid of them i tell you] they're really dangerous [if you didn't know that already]. So, at times i find myself in the maze wondering why i was even there. Not matter how much i try [which isn't a lot] i can't seem to know why im there but who really cares?

Well, when i went to the maze [with Jas] one time, well the maze was weird and stuff [aren't the maze always weird?]. Okay so..what was i saying again? *listening to music at the moment*Okay well, i forgot what i was going to tell you but anyways, the main point is, the maze is not a good place to be at. Not because you could get lost because duh! people get lost in the maze a lot of times. Those hedges can hurt you. For example, the hedges may cut you or the hedges [because it so stupidily wanted to close] make you run for your life until you]re breathless.

Well that's all for now. [isn't it nice that im in a better mood right now?]

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

[Kali Rune]

June 22nd

Dear

Okay, so what's up with me? What's up with life? Well nothing really.I met new people. I still thought a lot for some reason. Did i ever tell you that? That i think way too much right now and i cant seem to find why? I mean there's nothing wrong with me. I'm content with life. There's nothing bad going on. I'm okay.

Anyways, I'm tired. I know i should probably go to sleep. Maybe i will. What time is it anyways? Oh well...i'll write soon. I don't even know why i said that. Oh well...

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

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June 23rd

Today was yet again another day when i will sleep in late. Well, i can't really talk about today can i? Since today had just started. Oh well... Yesterday was an okay day. I met a few people. What else? Well nothing else happened. If i got any more news, I'll write.

xx Kali

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June 23rd

I know, i know, why am i writing again? Well, just as you know, its almost the next day and i just wanted to write like a little check up or something. Nothing much had happen since the time i wrote this day. As Ive told you, i met a few people. One of the new people i met was Celine. She's a pretty cool person. She has like the same hobbies and interest as me can you believe that?

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xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

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June 24th

Nothing to do. That's all I'm saying. Hopefully there will be something I'll be doing. I probably should just go now and find something to do and tell you about it.

xx Kali

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PS... still getting use to this idea, you know, writing in a 'journal' about what i do. In truth, i find it very.. well, useless, but i still do it. [/color][/font][/size][/blockquote]

[Kali Rune]

June 25th

Yeah i know, its too early in the morning to be writing. Can you believe that i actually got my sleep? Oh well...anyways, i woke up early today as you could see. Ill be writing more later since it is early and i haven't really dont anything yet.

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June 27th

A nice day it is. Almost everyday, i meet someone new and they're great. I mean, im actually friendlier than last year. Right? Of course you dont' know. How could you, you're only a journal.

Anyways, what was i going to say. Well, i was just thinking. Thinking, i've been dong a lot lately, but don't you see that at times, people usually do things when they are just in the mood for it. I mean, i wouldn't just eat when i don't feel like it. I wouldn't just sing if i dont feel like it. I wouldn't just play the guitar if i dont feel like it. You know? At times people does that. That is, do whatever they want when they feel like it. It totally understands it. Seriously. I feel the same way too at times. Thinking about that, that's what the dude from the book i was reading was saying too. He does things only when he's in the mood for it.

Anyways, i got nothing more to say. Just thoughts of things.

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

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June 28th

Again, there is not much to say. Isn't this just boring? Writing about how stupid my life is? Or how boring it is and how there's nothing that ever happens? Yeah...i know, i could just stop boring you with my stupid life but i got nothing better to do.

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

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June 29th

Current status: Listening to music
Location: Muggles Electronics Room
What band? The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Songs: False Pretense, Your Guardian Angel, Cat and Mouse

--> Just an idea of what im currently doing. Plus, i figure, why not write?

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

All alone you know you thought you got the best of me
You were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense



When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one



Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me….

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June 29th

Time: Afternoon
Location: Common Room
Status: Mad >_<

Okay, why am i mad you ask? Well, im just into my thoughts. One of the things i hate in life are copy cats. I just HATE it. HATE it HATE it HATE it. Can't say why im thinking about it right now but i hate them. Seriously. Who else hates them? Surely a lot of people does. Seriously. Grr...>_<. I dont like it when that happens. Like when i was little i had a friend [five years old??] Well, she copies me too much and i hated it. I didn't want to be her friend anymore. Suddenly im becoming nothing because of her. FxxK. Ooops...Sorry. Im just freaking pissed. All my thought of the past keeps making me angry. The more i think about it, the more angry i become. That girl i was friends with, she doesn't have her own personality. I think to myself, why dont she just be herself? I mean, i dont want people to be like me because i like being me. I like being the only one that's me. Grr... I hate people. >_<

PS Sorry for the messy writing. Too mad to write neatly. >_<

xx Kali [/font][/color][/blockquote]

[Kali Rune]

July 10th

Hello there,

Well, i guess that it's safe to say that my second term at Trios is over. Summer is here. I dont like summer very much, the session that is because it gets too hot and well..you know that i dont like the sun very much. On the upside though, we get a break from school plus the work! That's a good thing.

There isn't much to say. The term, i must say, did pass pretty pass. It just flew away just like that. I couldn't believe it at first. I must say, that it was pretty nice, second year that is.

I haven't got much to say for now, so i guess i'll try writing more tommorow or something. Plus, look at the time, tommorow is sooner than you know.

xx Kali

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[Kali Rune]

July 12th

So, what's been going on? Well, nothing really. I do feel kinda dumb right now just writing here. I know, how long have i been writing here? I know it's been a while since I've started but hey, who could blame me if i wasn't really used to it. And you know what makes me think of this things? Well, when i got basically nothing to say. Sure, there might have been things that i should have written down but i keep forgetting to write them but who cares really. No one right?

So, you already know that it's the summer and well...the term starts back again in the 17th. Yup, so i got *counts* five days til term starts again and I'm starting as a third year! can you believe that?! Yup. I'm, i guess, happy. I dunno.

Well...i guess I'll write more some time about things but like i told you, i keep forgetting to write things that might be important. This 'journal' is always in this room every time there is something that i need to write. Grr...

xx Kali

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June 13th

Mood: Excited

OH MY GOSH!!! IM SO EXCITED!!! Guess what??? Guess why?? Today's freaking FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN!!!! Im soooooooo happy. I know, people think im weird because of that but who cares? I mean, today is friday the thirteen and its suppose to be a sucky day and all but im just happy. I know i have no reason to but hey, im weird, i can live with that.

La la la... Yup..i'll write more later and that's a promise. I'll try to say EVERYTHING that happens today because today is a special day.

xx Kali

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July 19th

Location: ??
Music: Brighter by Paramore


Hey..i dont really know what's going on with life you know? Life's just a big blah. Sometimes its confusing, sometimes you just love it. Life...i dont know what life is. You know sometimes, well most of the times i still wonder what life is really about. I know, i love music and i keep looking at my little pin saying Music = Life. Yeah i know i love music in all but i know that somewhere out there, there is something more but i dont know what it is. It's awkward for me, and personal just saying these thoughts of mine. I know, this is suppose to be some private journal or what not but i am serious. I usually wouldn't just write what i think, i usually keep it to myself, for my thoughts but now...i've been thinking, maybe i do need a hand. I would never admit it but my life's been pretty messed up. Well, i had my break-down last term, that's all im saying about that for now.

So, life...well, hopefully someday, whenever that may be, i may find what it is im looking for. Hopefully i will. I know, im putting a lot on you just by telling this but i tell you, this is not all, this is just part of my thoughts am i really am sorry to put this all but i need to share my thoughts sometimes, even if it's a little uncomfortable and well...personal for me. I even think i'll put a little spell on you to keep you...a secret so that no one would be able to read my thoughts EVER.

xx Kali

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July 19th

Hey, Today's still the 19th and i know you're just wondering why im writing and im just doing it because im trying to be more...open to you. Yeah i know lame, pathetic, whatever. I dont really care if you hate me or not. I just wanted to write to get things off my mind, to just ... lighten up the weight on my shoulders. This is, i say it again, the first time i've opened up to some...thing but im okay with it.

Last night, or should i say morning, i before i slept, i had..thoughts and well, i woke up with thoughts. I guess it might be just another moodswing or maybe im being my old me but i promise i' a god girl. I'll try my best not to do anything stupid or anything. I've been a good girl that's all i can say. My mood has just been down lately and i dont know why. I seriously dont know what writing will do or why i am doing it but somehow...i feel better afterwards. I dont know...

Well...i'll write more when i have more to say. Maybe tomorrow, maybe later. I promise you i'll be more open...hopefully i could do it no matter how hard it is. I know though that it's easier being open to a...journal than people.

And I'll wave goodbye
Watching you shine bright
And I'll wave goodbye tonight ...

xx Kali

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[Kali Rune]

August 6th

Hey!...so okay i have no news to tell you. Nothing much has been going on but...i could just tell you a little about me. I know someday i'll regret even writing here, or maybe not but i'm just bored. There's nothing to do here and i know...I know that this little...'journal' or whatever is suppose to keep my thoughts and stuff or about something of importance in my life but i dont have anything so i'll just write something even if there's no point.

So...

Im brain-dead okay. Im weird. Sheesh you don't have to press that on me but anyways. Where am i right now? At the common room. Xp. Ya... i dont really like being here because there's nothing to do here. Leave? I know i'll get out later after i finish on writing. So what am i listening to right now? Three Days Grace. Ohhhh...maybe i could give my thoughts of the day or something?? I could do that!

Sorry...moodswings here... =p

On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Did I fall asleep?
Is this all a dream?
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I'll write again later with something important to say instead of all these rubish. Yeah, yeah, i know i should go. I suck don't I? Oh well...

xx Kali

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August 7th

Life so far has been okay i guess...that's all i could say. Im not much into thoughts. Somehow not these days and i dont know why. It's not that im really excited or even just looking forward to times like that, i just dont know. Thinking. I dont know. I guess i have just gotten used to so much of it. I dont even know what to talk about now. I just don't know...

Its weird you know how sometimes you want to talk about things but you just cant. You want to but your mouth wouldn't let you. How is that? Is it just because you're not ready to talk? Or is it because you don't trust them? Or is just because you can't just talk about those things? Are you just afraid of people's reaction or what? I don't know what it is for my case.

Being afraid...i guess you could say that. You know how at times you just dont' know how people would react. That's what's it. You dont' want people to hate you or something because of what you've just told them but who can change anything? If they hate you, they hate you. There's nothing you could do about it.

Another thing about talking. You know how sometimes you just don't know who to talk to. I mean, there are some people you could talk to about certain things but not others. I get that. It's just i dont know who to talk to about such and such topics. Afraid. Again it comes up. Sometimes i just...i dont know..want to talk about things that mattered or something but i couldn't bring myself to do it, no matter how much i wanted. It's like sharing how you feel is not something you want people to know. I know that. It's just so hard to do it no matter how much you tell yourself to just...do it. I dont' know. I dont even know what im talking about and why im even talking. Confused. Weird. I know i am right now. That's just it. I'll write more later on about things. I dont know what type.

xx Kali

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[Kali Rune]

August 13th

So, what's going on lately? Nothing much really. Life is not busy but when was it even be? I guess that's for someone else to answer not me?

Listening to: Boys like girls

So...school's been going on okay. That's all. Life's...life's the same, or at least that's what it seem to me. Family? Well, haven't talked to them in a long time. Im thinking about visiting them in the break, when that comes but im not sure yet. I'm pretty sure that would probably back out in the last minute but i didn't tell anyone about my plans to visit them, well, i only told one person and that's Jade.

What else? Well, there's nothing mush to talk about really. Usually when i do have something in my mind, there's no one to tell it to [not that i would tell anyone about it anyways], and there's nothing to write it too. It would just disappear. It would just be lost with my other lost memories and i wonder if, if i would even remember them because at that moment, that thought was important then. Now, i can't remember them. I don't know why that always happen. Why isn't there some notebook or something to use to just...just make me remember it. I know it was important but it'll always be lost. I won't remember them and i guess i would just wonder. I would wonder what happened to them and why they were important ot me.

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Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didnt want to go,

Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

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You know...i don't know...im hopeless. I don't know. im pathetic.

Well...?

AHH!! Grr...

Im just brain-dead. I'm just confused i guess. There's too many thoughts in my head but i can't write it. No, i won't write it. There's no point. Forget the whole being open thing. I would but i won't be as open as i thought i would be. i can't. You probably think i'm weird. That's okay. i can live with that. At least you could listen and i know that my words are just killing you. I mean, who would want to listen to be blabber on and on about pointless things? No one right. I guess i should just shut up.

Until then.

xx Kali

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