Almost Lover </3 (Open)

[amandalarsen]

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Her foot-falls on the ground were light, yet heavy with every step as she regrettably headed toward a direction she'd never really want to step foot in. The silent echoes of her heart beating, pounding hard against her chest was her only distraction as she descended the stairs to the ground floor of the castle. Again, the silence echoes inside her, hollow and undescribable.

Amanda never was sure about her life these days. Quidditch was beginning to fall through her fingers as members of the Hufflepuff house weren't participating in the try-outs. These days no one wants to be a quidditch player. They were, instead, romantics. All of them wanted to be lovers. Too soon. It was too soon for anyone to ever fall in love.

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

But she was being bitter because of her own heart-ache. Those harsh, but truthful words echoing in her mind from Akito. She wasn't suppose to fall in love and no one was suppose to love her back. Amanda was a loner, a drifter, someone who is a nobody. Sapphire orbs look toward the front castle doors. Beyond those doors, she swallowed thickly, knowing what was behind them.

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

She slipped through a thin opening and left to begin walking down the gravel lane. The sweet, sickly scent of roses lingered in her nostrils, causing her to feel dizzy and nauseas at the same time. It was the scent of flowering love among the bushes. Roses symbolizing that connected feeling for one another. The center point of a everlasting-love based relationships.

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

Looking away, she tucked her hands within her gray hoodie pockets. Her head down-cast most of the time as long blonde tendrils fell over her shoulder and framing her face. She wasn't sure why she was down here, probably on her way to Hogsmeade. She really didn't need a reason to go, but at least she could get away from school for awhile.

That's it. She needed fresh air, even if the roses suffocated her. Amanda needed a new escape from the castle. Her destination was beyond these gates and somewhere between there and Hogsmeade. Not particularily thinking of a certain area, she just had her mind set on eventually coming to Hogsmeade. But until then, she had to manage by getting through Rose Petal Lane, alone.

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

[Jodi Peterson]

Jodi was confused. Confusion was Jodi. The line between the two seams to blur.

Jodi was in love. Love was Jodi. The lie between the two seemed to be so blurred.

No matter how Jodi looked at it, it didn't make sense.

She looked at Joe and her heart seemed to melt. Then she looked at him again a
second later and her heart was fill of rage. Not rage for Joe, rage for herself.

She'd think of Mark and her heart seemed to flutter. Then she'd think of him again,
and be full of hatred. It wasn't hatred at all for Mark, but hatred aimed toward
herself.

There was a reason for these feelings. Jodi was yet to discover it. She didn't know the reason she seemed to be drawn toward Joe and Mark. Nor did she know the reason she sunk when thinking of them.

I'll let you in on a secret. Shhh...

The man that killed Jodi's brother, had touched her that night. Jodi couldn't remember, but she'd guessed. No memory charm could help her forgot the bruises that covered her pale skin for weeks after 'that day'. And strangly enough, it wasn't a memory charm that had made her forgot what had really happened. It was Jodi's own mind. It was her own mind stopping herself from breaking.

How did this relate to her feelings toward Joe and Mark. Simple. Jodi was afraid of men. Jodi was afraid of being hurt by them. Jodi felt this scared feeling, but wasn't able to connect the dots. And luckily she couldn't, because if she could, all hell would have broken loss.

The bruises haunt her dreams but she doesn't know why...

To Jodi, her was just a confused teen. Every teen had problems like this; just for different reasons. The reasons didn't matter, the way to solve them was the problem. Jodi loved being single. After all, she was only 16. But there was a little part of her that wanted the closeness that came with having a partner. Jodi had never been a shy person, but with a boy she liked, it was a different matter.

Hoping the flowers would give her some inspiration for what to do, Jodi hoped down to the Rose Petal Lane. She was in a mellow mood. Not too happy but not too sad. A perfect mood for everything. As Jodi approached the Lane, Jodi noticed Amanda, up a little way. Taking smaller steps that usual, Jodi walked toward her. Maybe little Miss Mandy Larsen would help sure all of life's problems. Jodi stood beside the girl, saying nothing. She looked to Jodi as if had been petrified. Something was wrong, Jodi was yet to find out what. Jodi was yet to find out a lot of things.

[amandalarsen]

Amanda remained down this lane longer than she would have planned. Faint clearly in sight as she felt herself dizzy with blurred visions. Maybe her allergies were effecting her too greatly than she had expected. Darn those allergies. But she lacked two meals today, only sipping on juice and water, then laying in bed and staring at the ceiling.

She was unaware of her company approaching from behind. Her hearing came in and out at times. And she felt a pranging headache coming along. Yes, it must be those allergies and the lack of food and nutrients, but there had to be something else bothering Amanda. School was obviously one of those options. It stressed the hell out of her. The work and the teachers all together.

Her sapphire orbs looked over her shoulder, staring straight at Jodi, but she looked almost like a blur. Pale pink chapped lips parted, but only air passed through them. A long sigh escaped as her eyes dropped to the floor. And finally, finally she found her voice to speak. "Hello Jodi." Slowly her head lifted, looking head on at Jodi, breathing in deeply and slowly to calm her nerves.

"What brings you out here?" She asks calmly and dully since she didn't have much strength in her to feel normal. It was just one of those days when you were in a rut. Nothing else seemed to matter, but Amanda hated this feeling. She hated feeling so down. The seventeen year old girl dug her hands even deeper into her hoodie as she stood, waiting for an answer from Jodi.

[Jodi Peterson]

Amanda looked so different. Jodi couldn't explain it. Her lips where chapped, and her voice a little weak. It wasn't normal for Jodi to see her captain oh captain like this at all. Something was seriously wrong. Perhaps Amanda was just as stressed as she was, maybe even more. Either way, Jodi was determined to get Amanda to speak up. Far too long had Jodi relied on Amanda for help.

What brings you out here?

As Jodi heard this question she grinned on the inside. That question seemed to be unanswerable. She was at Rose Petal Garden to find answers. She hoped the flowers and the smells would give her some understanding to the madness that seemed to rage in her head. Jodi knew that being here wouldn't help. The believe that is would, was what counted. Almost like the placebo effect. And if it worked for Jodi, she wasn't going to complain.

Jodi wished to herself to be grown up at this moment. If she didn't have all of these hormones running through her body, maybe she would see things clearer. She'd had the opportunity and the experience to know how she felt. She'd have the freedom to do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted. It would help the situation, but the idea was a little unrealistic. Unless of course Jodi wanted to make an aging potion. If she took a little bit each day, not many people would notice and then no one would make her take the antidote.

Jodi made her thoughts simpler. Something more simple and easy to understand.
"I'm looking for answers to questions I'm yet to know the answer to." Jodi said in a straight voice. "Now to you? You don't seem too good, are you alright?" Jodi stood, almost starring at Amanda. Would she open up to Jodi, only time would tell.