I Miss You..... [open]

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

[[note my posts won't really be this long. I just had a sudden inspiration and I let it go. so ya.]]


Sighing Lizzy shoved her hands into the pockets of her dark blue skinny jeans as she walked up the spiral staircase to the owlry. It had been a long time since she had come to visit her owl. So that's where she was going just before dawn on this chilly saturday morning.

She had been doing a lot of thinking lately, and for Lizzy that never turned out well. She always was better off just going with her heart at the spur of the moment. It had proven the most effective for her so far, but she couldn't help but sit back and think sometimes.

What was she thinking about?

Oh that's easy. Her family. Her missing friends. Everything sad and depressing in her life. Even though she hated his guts for being such a jerk when she went on her first term break Damion had repented a bit by bringing Brad to the only place that he knew Lizzy would show up after a long aimless drive.

Even though he never understood her like Brad did Damion had always been the closest thing after her family's murder to a brother... Even if he wasn't there like an older brother was supposed to be he was still there.

Blinking her eyes furiously at the tears that were fighting to break free Lizzy entered the owlry and was instantly bombarded by her snowy owl Jordan. "Hey baby girl." she said her voice slightly choked.

Taking her owl she went and sat out on the balcony of the place and stared unseeingly out over the grounds. Holding her owl in her hands once again made her whole past flash through her mind like a movie. blinking her eyes furiously again she started singing the only song that could, and would calm her. It was one she adored with her life because it described her life so much.

Sha la la la la
Sha la la la la

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

Finishing the song Lizzy sighed and leaned her head back against the railing. Why did life have to be like this? Why didn't she have a family to go to when things got tough?[/size]

[dream]

Just wondering. thinking. Not knowing if anyone would care for her again since she has been away to Paris, France for over a month and a half, there was no other way to talk to her friends. As Emily writes a letter to one of her friends, just saying hello.

Dearest Fayt,

How are you my friend. it has been such a while since we last talked to each other. As for me, i just came back from France and right now i am back at school with everyone else. How is Jasmine? What has happened since the last time we just chat. i hope we can talk soon.

Sincerely,
Emily Browning

As Emily gets dressed up in a rosy pink patterned shirt with some pair of blue jeans and a pair of sneakers. She took the letter that she wrote in her hands and also took her wand and put it in the jean pocket. As she quickly walked to the mirror it amazed her as to how long her hair has grew. She just hopes that everyone will recognized the old bookworm that was here before in the past. She took a deep breath as she is now walking toward the door. Emily opened the door as she smiled at her cat, angel. she closed the door behind her and was gone.

Walking. Smiling. Happy. As Emily was walking toward the hill of the owlery she would knottiest that she heard a song. a voice that was familiar to her. As she kept walking toward the owlery, the voice was getting louder and high, like this person was a girl and has a soprano voice. The door was opened and Emily stand by the door as she heard the girl sing.

Sha la la la la
Sha la la la la

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

Emily clapped her hands with around of applause. She was amazed as this girl was Jade. Her best friend. She reminded her so much of her cousin, Miley. As she was now gone from hogwarts. She smiled and said "I missed you too jade. how have you been. Do you remember me?" Emily did look different with her longer hair and a little bit tanned. She missed jade so much that it was like she and jade were sisters. She just hope that jade remembers her.

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

Lizzy took her hand and ran it through her hair as she heard a familiar voice she hadn't heard in forever. Biting her bottom lip she let Jordan fly back up into teh rafters as she stood up and turned around. In her mind there was no better way to cheer her up than an old friend showing up.

Smiling she ran over to Emily and gave her a hug. Letting her friend go before she killed her Lizzy noted that she wasn't scary pale anymore, but a bit tanner, and her hair was longer. So she wasn't the only one that changed. "Of course I remember you. How could I forget one of my best friends?" she asked smiling. She had four or five best friends and all of them but Shay and Emily had dissappeared.

"Oh my gosh Emily how are you?" she asked her friend her face lighting up totally. "Where'd you dissappear off to?" she asked sitting on a bench that was clear from owl droppings as she did so.[/size]


[[[that was a bit short, but i've got a major headache.]]]

[dream]

[[its ok and i might do the same. sorry for the short reply]]


Emily smiled with relief that her best friend didn't forget her at all since her long absent. She stayed still but jade turned around to face her and gave her a happy smile that Emily really missed. Jade changed her look as well but as Emily was about to move, Jade came running after her to give her a hug. Emily also gave jade that big hug that she needed. It almost looked like that jade was up to something but what exactly? "Of course I remember you. How could I forget one of my best friends?" Jade asked smiling. "Well, i don't know. maybe because i wasn't here for a while." Emily said sarcasticly but trying to be funny.
"Oh my gosh Emily how are you?" Jade asked her friend her face lighting up totally.
"I am doing good. Happy that i found one of my friends here. Now i think that everyone knows im here. I heard someone talking about me while i was coming up here. This girl said 'Have you heard? That bookworm, Emily Browning is back from who knows where. I thought she would be gone for good'. and blah blah blah. she kept talk but i kept walking. What happened while i was away?" Emily asked wonderingly.
"Where'd you dissappear off to?" she asked sitting on a bench that was clear from owl droppings as she did so.

"Oh you haven't heard...." Emily said as she was walking with jade and was sitting down on the same bench with jade. "... I left hogwarts for some family business. I was in Paris, France. Actually, i have some pictures that i brought with me from france, if you would like to see but yet again they are in my bedroom." Emily informed her calmly but happily.

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

Lizzy laughed, "Well you were definately wrong there weren't you?" she asked scrunching her nose as her owl flew back down to her and nibbled at her fingers. Knowing that meant that Jordan wanted an oatmeal cookie she shoved her hand into the pocket of her white zip jacket and pulled out an oatmeal cookie. She watched as the owl happily munched on the cookie.

Turning back to Emily something occured to her. "Hey whatever happened to your cousing Miley?" she asked curious as to where another of her best friends had gotten too. She knew that Miley and Emily were cousins because she was so close to them when they were around here a lot.

Lizzy smiled, "Dang the bookworm's back." she said giggling. One of the main things that the two had in common they were the biggest bookworms on earth. "No I can't talk because I'm just as big of a bookworm." she added.

After a minute she shrugged at the question, "Nothing really interesting. Oh ya, there was something," she said rummaging around in the bag she had with her, and bringing out the newspaper clipping from the Daily Prophet. She handed it to Emily to read.

A string of recent attacks has the Ministry on alert. It's now been two months since a group of former death eaters escaped from Azkaban by unknown methods and killed a Ministry Auror. After a quiet couple months, it seems as if these fiends are no longer content to stay hidden.

Recently, several known former dark supporters have been attacked in the middle of the nights. The homes were broken into, though nothing was taken from any of the homes. The victims have all been among those that plead for lesser offenses during the last dark war and have served short sentences in Azkaban due to their cooperation with the Ministry.

So far, no one has been killed but each one has been found missing large chunks of skin from their forearms, purportedly where their dark marks were or would have been. Progress on the investigation is unknown due to silence from the auror department and the minister's office.

An unnamed source from within the Ministry warns that these attacks could soon escalate to the general public and recommends taking necessary precautions to ward off intruders. The Ministry will soon be offering a self defense lesson in response to these attacks and warns everyone to be vigilent until this dangerous criminals can be apprehended

She let Emily read through the article before she went on, "And there's talk of a new dark lord rising, but other than that you've missed nothing." she said shrugging. She would have mentioned the fact that the older boy she hung out with all the time was now her boyfriend, but she didn't. It wasn't that important.

"Oooooh, Well I expect to see pictures soon. That sounds like a fun thing to do. I was thinking of going to Paris either during a term change or right after I graduate." she said still happy. She was getting a bit bouncy and hyper, but it only showed on her face.

[dream]

Emily was happy that she was talking to jade. I mean, being out of school and in france for a month and a half was a long time but yet again, Emily didn't want to tell her that now part of her family is vampires and Miley and Emily are the only ones that are mortals. That would just brake Jade's heart if i told her that miley is having a performation tonight, that was why miley wasn't around. Yet again Emily is a bad lier and everyone knows that.

Hey whatever happened to your cousing Miley?" Jade asked curious as to where another of her best friends had gotten too. Jade knew that Miley and Emily were cousins because she was so close to them when they were around here a lot.
"umm. Miley is.... still in france with her parents and her mum decided that she would be going to that all girls magical school in paris. i forgot what it was called but yet again she thinks its for the best." Emily said as she was trying to now show any emotion of guilt on her face.

Lizzy smiled, "Dang the bookworm's back." she said giggling. One of the main things that the two had in common they were the biggest bookworms on earth. "No I can't talk because I'm just as big of a bookworm." she added.
Emily laughed so hard that you can't tell that she was going to fall or not. "Well lets call it even. we are both the biggest bookworms in our year... or maybe more." Emily added as she was right. Both Jade and herself was that smartest in there year.

After a minute jade shrugged at the question, "Nothing really interesting. Oh ya, there was something," she said rummaging around in the bag she had with her, and bringing out the newspaper clipping from the Daily Prophet. She handed it to Emily to read.

Emily looked confused as Jade handed her the Daily prophet but yet again it was a front page news of last weeks paper. Emily looked at the black headline with shock on her face. She began to read.

A string of recent attacks has the Ministry on alert. It's now been two months since a group of former death eaters escaped from Azkaban by unknown methods and killed a Ministry Auror. After a quiet couple months, it seems as if these fiends are no longer content to stay hidden.

Recently, several known former dark supporters have been attacked in the middle of the nights. The homes were broken into, though nothing was taken from any of the homes. The victims have all been among those that plead for lesser offenses during the last dark war and have served short sentences in Azkaban due to their cooperation with the Ministry.

So far, no one has been killed but each one has been found missing large chunks of skin from their forearms, purportedly where their dark marks were or would have been. Progress on the investigation is unknown due to silence from the auror department and the minister's office.

An unnamed source from within the Ministry warns that these attacks could soon escalate to the general public and recommends taking necessary precautions to ward off intruders. The Ministry will soon be offering a self defense lesson in response to these attacks and warns everyone to be vigilent until this dangerous criminals can be apprehended

Jade let Emily read through the article before she went on, "And there's talk of a new dark lord rising, but other than that you've missed nothing." she said shrugging. Emily didn't look at jade right away but yet again she said "Oh my goodness. i can't believe this is happening. Who can this be?" Emily was shock at the term for a moment until she shook it for and her happy self was back again.

"Oooooh, Well I expect to see pictures soon. That sounds like a fun thing to do. I was thinking of going to Paris either during a term change or right after I graduate." Jade said still happy. She was getting a bit bouncy and hyper, but it only showed on her face. Emily looked at her as if there was something missing here. "Lizzie, is there something that you are trying to hide from me? Because, if it is then its not working on me right now. Can you please tell me?" Emily said as she looked at her and waiting for her to tell her what was going on.

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

Lizzy stood up again with her owl on her arm and took it over to a perch near another snowy owl that she vaguely recognized as Elli's. Sighing she hoped that that was a sign that Elli would be back. If not soon than someday.

Listening to Emily tell her about Miley her smile dissappeared instantly. Emily was never a good liar and Lizzy didn't even have to turn around to know that there was something that Emily was trying to hide. Giving her owl one last stroke she turned around slowly and gave Emily a skeptical look. They were really good friends so that didn't help the fact that Emily was trying to hide something either. "Now we both know that there's more to that story than you're saying, so spill." she said backing up a few steps and leaning on the railing of the balcony behind her.

Lizzy smiled a small smile again, "Even then, though I'll warn you since you left I'm like the only one answering things in class, and it's a total pain because everyone's so lazy.... or they're just not bookworms so be ready for just us two answering things in class." she said with a small laugh. It was true they were probably the smartest two students in their year. Even if there were smarter people they didn't show it.

Nodding sadly Lizzy gave Emily a weak smile. She couldn't remember if Emily was one of her best friends tht she had told her past to, but if not then she wouldn't understand how much this whole thing bothered her. "I don't know, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get rid of them." she said knowing full well that what she really meant was ten times more than that.

Lizzy shrugged, "Nope. Not hiding anyways. Do you remember that guy I always used to hang around before you left?" she asked wanting to make sure Emily remembered before she went on with what she could say. She was getting a bit happier, but knowing something was up with Miley concerned her.[/size]

[dream]

Lizzy smiled a small smile again, "Even then, though I'll warn you since you left I'm like the only one answering things in class, and it's a total pain because everyone's so lazy.... or they're just not bookworms so be ready for just us two answering things in class." she said with a small laugh.
Emily laughed and said "ok i will be ready as soon as possible."

"I don't know, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get rid of them." she said knowing full well that what she really meant was ten times more than that. Emily stopped laughing as said "What do you mean? is it something bad or good that is happening right now?"

Jade shrugged, "Nope. Not hiding anyways. Do you remember that guy I always used to hang around before you left?" she asked wanting to make sure Emily remembered before she went on with what she could say. She was getting a bit happier, but knowing something was up with Miley concerned her.
"ummm. oh yeah. Brad! How is he and yes i remember him. He is always very nice ans gentle and sweet around you. Its like he fancies you." Emily said as she was remembering everything and was really happy. She looked at jade as there was something wrong now. Even without words, Emily knew that Jade knew that Emily was up to something and something really big. Emily bit her lip nervously as she was trying to do something out of the ordinary.

Emily looked surprised (well tried to be) that Jade knew that there was something that she was hideing. uh oh :[ . Emily looked at her with an emotionless impression but yet again it didn't work. Jade was giving her owl one last stroke before she turned around slowly and gave Emily a skeptical look. They were really good friends so that didn't help the fact that Emily was trying to hide something either. "Now we both know that there's more to that story than you're saying, so spill." she said backing up a few steps and leaning on the railing of the balcony behind her.

Emily closed her eyes and took one deep breath but as she said in her mind 'I wish miley was here. i wish Tyler was here to hold me. I wish someone can be here to just put duck tape on my mouth and just throw me to the black lake. I don't want to surprise Jade with the secret and i don't want to tell her that Miley is next up in line for the preformation tonight and then i would be next. I don't want to tell her but yet again if i don't then she would kill me. Here is goes........'

Emily opened her eyes as she looked at jade with a worried but calm look in her eyes. "Lizzie. I think this would shock you if i told you this. so when i do then don't kill me for this. You told me to spill so i will tell you but don't take it the wrong way at all because this is our family secret and tradition. Miley. As young as she looks and as happy she is, she is in paris, france right now and won't be coming back until other wise. For generations and pasted down to the leginimentcy of our family's name, we have the traditional gathering called the blood settlement.

"The blood settlement happens when one of our family members has just finish there course in the human lives as a muggle or a witch or a wizard. You can finish this course when you are in between the ages of 16 to 18 years old. Once then you are at the age, the blood settlement can only be performed in a full moon. The preformence that miley will be doing is called a fron' donson in other words, the performation.

"Once the performence starts, everyone that is young and old will dress in black and the person that is doing the performation will be dressed in white and only white. Everyone will be in a circle while the person that is doing the performation will say a vow of words as a token of fare well to there human lives. Once there, the person will lay down on this sort of stone table. People will be chanting something in french while the person that will help perform the transformation will say a couple of words and will bite the person.

"I know what you would be saying. bite? what do you mean bite? Well, Miley and Myself are the only ones in the family that is mortal. All of my family including my twin sister are vampires. Miley has finished the course way to early and she thinks she could do the performation tonight. She wanted to tell you in person but she didn't have time so she said for me to tell you all of this when she completed she first week of being a vampire but right now i didn't listen." Emily told her the story was hoping that she wouldn't be mad.

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

"You better." Lizzy said in a mock-serious tone. "No it'll be a relief not having to answer all the questions anymore." she said scrunching her nose. It was true. At least 90% of the time she was the one answering questions in class. Sometimes others would offer an answer, but only after about five minutes of silence.

Lizzy looked at Emily a bit confused, "Well I would call a new dark lord rising with already followers that were with Voldemort as well as recruiting more. In my books that's bad." she said still failing to mention the reason why it bothered her so much, but it didn't show that she wasn't saying something because only the people she had told her past story to would know.

Lizzy grinned and nodded at Emily's remembering of Brad. Hearing how sweet he was around her made her even happier because she knew it was true, and evidently so did other people. "Well I sure hope he fancies me..." she said pausing for dramatic effect, and it seemed to work, "otherwise I don't know why he asked me out." she said giggling. Yup she and Brad. Together. Since the second term ball, but that was just a minor detail. She hadn't seen him much since. He had been trying to work things out with his mom, but she didn't mind because he was hers and she was his.

As soon as her happy mood had started it vanished as Emily uttered words of poison. Not hateful words, but words that broke her heart. She had many friends that were vampires, but none by choice. She listened to the whole tale and slid down the railing to the floor as she did so. Shutting her eyes she took a deep breath.

Opening her eyes again she ran a hand through her hair, "I have quite a few friends that are vampires, but not by choice. They would love to be human again." she started in a quiet voice. Her two best friends were part of a wierd ritual that would make them immortal.

Then something else hit her that she had forgotten about, but soon remembered, Vampires were discriminated against in the magical world so when Voldemort was in power he took advantage of that and got the vampires on his side. Not even the war against Voldemort had changed the discrimination against werewolves and vampires because now people held grudges against the ones that hurt their families. Knowing that a new dark lord was coming to power had a whole new meaning to her. Especially now since Emily and Miley were going to be vampires. Vampires and werewolves were bound to turn to the new dark lord for power, and they'd most likely get what they wanted so the new dark lord would have more followers.

"Vampire by choice." she said suddenly, "Vampires and werewolves are discriminated by the magical community and are bound to turn to the new dark lord." she said finishing in a whisper.

Now she had come complete circle. Sad/angry, happy, excited, happy, sad/angry. No of course she wasn't mad at Emily or Miley, but at their family for even starting the tradition. Sighing she took a deep breath and looked at Emily again. "Have I ever told you why I live with my godmother?" she asked her voice soft and sounding unusual. Now Lizzy had learned a secret of Emily's, Emily was about to learn a secret of hers.

She didn't live wither her godmother anymore because she had been kicked out, but she will get to that part. Rolling up her sleeves she saw in the early morning light that only the deepest cuts were left on her arms as evidence that she had once cut, but now the cuts were scars. They, unlike the not so deep ones hadn't dissappeared, but they would be necessary in order for Emily to understand.

There were about three people that knew the secret behind her scars, and Emily wasn't one of them.... yet. Ella had known only because when they met in the dungeons she had still be cutting and didn't have Brad to influence her to stop, nor Elli and her new self. Elli knew because they had been best friends back in London, and Brad himself just because he could get anything out of her.

It wasn't until she had asked Emily if she had ever told her of her past when something else of what Emily said had registered in her brain. Lizzy looked up at Emily a bit confused, "I didn't know you had a twin sister? Why doesn't she come to trios?" she asked really very confused now. As much as the two knew about each other Emily had never mentioned a twin sister.[/size]



[[hate to break it to ya, but mine's longer lol.]]

[dream]

"You better." Lizzy said in a mock-serious tone. "No it'll be a relief not having to answer all the questions anymore." she said scrunching her nose. Laughing Emily looks at Lizzy, "Well maybe I just won't show up then and I can have some fun while you get to answer the million questions to the class. Just kidding!" Emily was just laughing so badly that she could tell that lizzie wasn't going to stay serious forever and that she was going to crack up laughing any minute now.

"Well I would call a new dark lord rising with already followers that were with Voldemort as well as recruiting more. In my books that's bad." she said. When Lizzie all of a sudden brought up something about the dark lord, it made her think. moments passes and Emily broke the silence. "Yeah, it is kinda - for every reason - horrible that people are being recruded for the dark lord. I mean, what are these people thinking?" Emily knows that there are a lot of people in this world but yet again she still can't understand why would people end up in the evil side and not the good.

"Well I sure hope he fancies me..." she said pausing for dramatic effect, and it seemed to work, "otherwise I don't know why he asked me out." she said giggling. Emily looked at lizzie with her wide eyed shock face. "Y-y-y-you and B-b-b-brad....Together!!!? When did this all happen? why doesn't anybody tell me anything anymore?" Emily just studered her words carefully but yet again she was in shock. now she just feels like nobody is telling anything anymore since she left the school over 2 months ago.

"I have quite a few friends that are vampires, but not by choice. They would love to be human again." she started in a quiet voice. Emily looked down and closed her eyes. "Vampire by choice." she said suddenly, "Vampires and werewolves are discriminated by the magical community and are bound to turn to the new dark lord." she said finishing in a whisper. "Miley nor i have choses to not become vampires either. Once you are born then you have to do the family tradtion whether you like it or not. Right now i can tell you that my family hates the new dark lord and they won't go the him or her or who ever it is. My whole family are still witches and wizards. After Miley becomes a vampire she will still be a witch as well, no change to that." Emily said almost in a loud whisper and yet again her words were again like poison instead of something sweet.

"Have I ever told you why I live with my godmother?" she asked her voice soft and sounding unusual. Emily opened her eyes as lizzie was rolling up her sleeves up that only the deepest cuts were left on her arms as evidence that she had once cut, but now the cuts were scars. They, unlike the not so deep ones hadn't dissappeared, but they would be necessary in order for Emily to understand. Emily looked at lizzie with sad eyes as she said "Lizzie, im so sorry. I can understand that you have vampires as your friends but what happened? I can tell you that i can relate to what you are going through. Really i can. I also have proof." Emily had worst and plently of proof for lizzie that she would cry, or so what Emily thinks.

Lizzy looked up at Emily a bit confused, "I didn't know you had a twin sister? Why doesn't she come to trios?" she asked really very confused now. As much as the two knew about each other Emily had never mentioned a twin sister and to Emily she was trying to keep that a secret..... until now. "Well, the reason is that Jessica - my twin - didn't want to come to trios because she was... scared. She was terrorfied that if she had come to trios then she would have to follow the blood settlement. the only thing that she didn't know was that she had to go through it sooner since she didn't come to trios for her witchcraft and wizardary education. At that same week, she turned into a vampire without a chose and i had to be there to see all of it. She was crying and pleading to stop but nobody listen. That hurt her pretty badly when she went through it. After the months passed i desided that i wouldn't put my family in conversation but in secret so that our traditions or anything that was secret to our family wasn't called for. Thats why i don't talk about my twin sister." Emily told lizzie the truth the best way as she can without creating a flaw to the story.

[[ beat that!!! lol]]

[Jade "Lizzy" Silvernacle]

Lizzy smiled and started laughing to. "Alright, Alright, we're both happy you're home." she said between gasps of laughter.

Lizzy shrugged, "What is everyone thinking? Most people want power so if they get it they are willing to be on either side." she pointed out shrugging, and still failing to mention why she hates the new Dark Lord, but it will come.

Smiling at the reaction Lizzy shrugged, "Umm... during the ball in my second term." she answered calmly compared to Emily's surprised voice. It even surprised herself how calm she sounded. Maybe it was because the thing had sunken in quite a bit more than at first.

Lizzy just shrugged at that. Even if they were born into the family with that kind of tradition she was sure they could find a loophole and get out of it. Sighing she ran a hand through her hair again. Her hair was going to be very soft after running her hand through it so many times.

"As of now that doesn't mean anything. I mean sure they hate the new dark lord now, but if the right opportunities are offered than I'm sure they'll jump at the thought of a better life or something." Lizzy said pointing out the obvious as she had done oh so many times before.

Lizzy shook her head, "I know they are still human. So are so many others that are vampires, and werewolves, but not many others see it the way I do." she said in a small sad vioce. Slowly her voice had been gaining sound, and now it was a whisper again.

Taking a deep breath Lizzy prepared herself to go into a big long spew about her past. "It all started with Voldemort. My parents were big supporters of the trio, and Dumbledore. They were very active against Voldemort, and he didn't like it. So..." pausing the fateful night of 14 years ago flashed through her mind once again. It pained her to relive the whole thing again, but she had to in order for Emily to understand.

Sighing she went on. "So, Voldemort sent out four Death Eaters to destroy everyone in my family. That night I lost more than just my mom, dad, older brother, and twin sister I lost my two best friends. I know I was only two when it happened, but I can still remember it like it was yesterday. I guess something that big leaves a big impact on someone's life." Lizzy finished the first part taking another breath and closing her eyes.

Lizzy went on, "So when they found me I was sent to live with my god mother. Since my mother and my godmother were best friends they knew about the magical world and thought it was pretty cool beans that they got the chance to go into it with me every once in a while." she said her voice getting a bit softer. "Though I never really recovered from that night. I started cutting when I was seven, and did some pretty nasty things to myself with that." Pulling her arms up she showed Emily the remaining scars.

"Now this is nothing though. Ever since I met Brad and started getting through my heart of steel to the soft inner me, and my old childhood friend Elli showed up here I quit cutting myself. Now only the deepeds and worst scars remain. The others hae been fading away in my happiness." Lizzy continued her eyes still shut. "Though I've broken down a few times and almost gone back to my old depressed rut Brad always seems to show up and fix everything. I owe a lot to him..." she went on and on explaining everything at once. Tears were fighting her a lot now, but she wouldn't let them fall. "About half way through my first term I got an owl from my godmother informing me that I was being kicked out and that I wasn't welcome there anymore. So ever since then I've been here, and for most days happy." Finishing Lizzy finally opened her eyes looking at Emily. Her eye still shone with tears as she opened them, but she was mainly waiting to see what Emily said.

Sighing she ran a hand through her hair again as she listened to Emily explain about her twin sister. "That's very understandable." Lizzy said nodding to Emily before looking over out onto the ever lightening groundsas morning came upon them.[/size]

[dream]

Emily smiled as she heard lizzie. "Alright, Alright, we're both happy you're home." she said between gasps of laughter. She started to laugh with her from some odd reason. She was home. Lizzie was like her sister and yet again she was just happy to see her again.

Lizzy shrugged, "What is everyone thinking? Most people want power so if they get it they are willing to be on either side." she pointed out shrugging. "As of now that doesn't mean anything. I mean sure they hate the new dark lord now, but if the right opportunities are offered than I'm sure they'll jump at the thought of a better life or something." Lizzie added. Emily didn't look happy nor sad nor angry but emotionless. " I still don't understand why would they do that. i mean, yeah i get the part when some people want power and just want to be stronger at somethings but come on! This is stupid and selffish!" Emily pointed out.

Smiling at the reaction Lizzy shrugged, "Umm... during the ball in my second term." she answered calmly compared to Emily's surprised voice. Emily was still in shock but yet again Emily still remembered her first love of all. Tyler Allen. She missed him so much but yet again he wasn't coming back for her ever again since he is now back in italy with his father and mother. She still felt guilty that she accedently crushed his heart in millions but yet again Emily was scared about her father's funeral and the attack that has happened to the school back in march. She just only wish that she can find someone to replace her broken heart.

"Wow. you must be lucky that you found someone that loves you. As for me and my stupid, idiot, dumb self Tyler is not coming back. Im the only person that everyone hates. Nobody is going to care for me again." Emily said as her face turned into sadness as she remembered the night of the attack and the brake up. She brought her knees up to her chest as she was looking away from jade and her tears were sliding down her rosy cheeks. She was hurt and pretty badly too."I know they are still human. So are so many others that are vampires, and werewolves, but not many others see it the way I do." she said in a small sad voice. Emily looked up to lizzie. "I know what you mean. that is why i can trust you right now. I just wish i can try to find a way to not become a vampire and try to stay away from my family. I love my family so much but being a vampire....... Its too much from me. But yet again i told my family if i live with them then i would do what they say but this is too much. I wish there was some way this can just stop. I guess i would have to be homeless until otherwise but i don't know how that would turn out." Emily was disappointed but for some reason happy that she is telling lizzie this.

Lizzie took a deep breath and Emily looked up at lizzie as she was now going to pay attention to what lizzie was going to say. "It all started with Voldemort. My parents were big supporters of the trio, and Dumbledore. They were very active against Voldemort, and he didn't like it. So..." Emily looked at lizzie as she was shocked as to what she was listening.

Sighing she went on. "So, Voldemort sent out four Death Eaters to destroy everyone in my family. That night I lost more than just my mom, dad, older brother, and twin sister I lost my two best friends. I know I was only two when it happened, but I can still remember it like it was yesterday. I guess something that big leaves a big impact on someone's life." Lizzy finished on part of what she said as she also closed her eyes. As the tears were still flowing from Emily's eyes, she dropped her legs to an indian position as she was still listening to lizzie.

Lizzy went on, "So when they found me I was sent to live with my god mother. Since my mother and my godmother were best friends they knew about the magical world and thought it was pretty cool beans that they got the chance to go into it with me every once in a while." she said her voice getting a bit softer. "Though I never really recovered from that night. I started cutting when I was seven, and did some pretty nasty things to myself with that." Pulling her arms up she showed Emily the remaining scars. The tears from Emily's eyes were violently rushing down her face. Emily knew that she had to tell her soon enough but she would wait until lizzie finished her story.

"Now this is nothing though. Ever since I met Brad and started getting through my heart of steel to the soft inner me, and my old childhood friend Elli showed up here I quit cutting myself. Now only the deepeds and worst scars remain. The others hae been fading away in my happiness." Lizzy continued her eyes still shut. "Though I've broken down a few times and almost gone back to my old depressed rut Brad always seems to show up and fix everything. I owe a lot to him..." she went on and on explaining everything at once. Tears were fighting her a lot now, but she wouldn't let them fall. "About half way through my first term I got an owl from my godmother informing me that I was being kicked out and that I wasn't welcome there anymore. So ever since then I've been here, and for most days happy." Finishing Lizzy finally opened her eyes looking at Emily. Her eye still shone with tears as she opened them, Emily got up from where she was sitting. As the crying gryffindor was looked at the sad slytherin, she quickly ran up to her and gave her a hug.

" i am... so sorry to hear that. But yet again i can realite to that...." Emily said as she turned her back to lizzie and took off her jacket so the only thing you can see from her sun shirt was deep cuts and scars that were bloody and messed up. Along with the cuts and scars there were some vampire bites. "I know what you are think but yet again i am not a vampire at all. My sister tortured me so much that she cut me with her fangs but at the time when she was doing this, her venom wasn't powerful or in good use yet. The other cuts and scars were from me taking a knife and hurting myself. I stopped when i first met Tyler. He helped me with the situation but when he wasn't with me anymore i started over again. some of them i did just last night. I do all of this because it helps me not remind myself about my family and our secrets and the thought of me being a vampire. this could all stop if i could find a place that doesn't have to do with a family of vampires like my family." Emily quickly put back on her jacket and turned around to see lizzie again.

Lizzie heard Emily explain about her twin sister. "That's very understandable." Lizzy said nodding to Emily before looking over out onto the ever lightening groundsas morning came upon them. She looked up to the sky as she also said "Yup. very reasonable but tough. Its hard to keep it a secret from everyone for about 4 years."[/size]