Post by Holden J. Caulfield on Nov 28, 2007 20:05:18 GMT -5
[/size][/blockquote]On the Grounds
Amanda grabbed his hand and nodded her head to the castle. Holden began following her as she pulled him up the hill. He blushed as she grabbed his hand. The Hufflepuff agreed completely. "Maybe I'll have coffee this time. I need some coffee." Holden didn't know what to make of this, Amanda holding his hand. Then she let go and grabbed onto his sleeve.
A sigh came from his lips. He couldn't let these feelings resurface. It hadn't worked with Haley and it didn't work out with Jessica; Amanda would be no different. Holden shook his head. No, he would stop these feelings before they came back. He wouldn't allow himself to like anyone ever again. Love just hurts too much.
Holden pulled his sleeve from her grip. No more touching. No anything. Feelings would never resurface. He would make himself emotionless. That would be better, much better.
"When I see your smile tears roll down my face. I can't replace. And now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul. And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.
"I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.
"It's ok, It's ok, It's ok.
"Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. Days grow longer and nights grow shorter. I can show you I'll be the one," he sang softly.
Another sigh came from his lips as they walked inside. Now he suddently felt bad for feeling this way. They were just feelings, but he didn't want to get hurt again. Holden ran his hand through his hair and looked to Amanda. He would never tell her about this. It would be better that way.
Holden opened up the door to the castle and let Amanda walk in first before he walked in. French Canadian gentleman. He walked beside her as they walked to the kitchens. Coffee was much needed in his system after this. Holden had always been a coffee addict since he was able to drink non-formula milk.
His gray eyes drifted to the floor as he thought. How could he become emotionless? How could he teach himself how to be that way? Would emotionless be better? Holden shook his head then opened the door to the kitchens. Again he let Amanda through before he did.
The Hufflepuff looked around to see if there were any house elves around.