&&how [in]appropriate__DEZI

[xxbrokenheartxx]

Aaryn thought she finally had things figured out. It was going to be all right. She knew that now. Because Dezi was gone, with time, and Pierce's help [although he wouldn't know he was giving help] she'd get over him. He'd be wiped from her mind. She'd be all better. Do you really want that? a voice from the back of her head asked. She had been hearing that voice more and more now. She wasn't sure if it showed maturity, or just that she had more problems where she couldn't make up her mind on. But the truth was, no, she didn't want to forget Dezi. But she hadn't seen him since a week after they kissed. He didn't tell her he was leaving. He must have not wanted her to follow. That meant she should forget about him. She should.

The rain was coming down in a light drizzle. Aaryn loved this kind of weather. The rain wasn't hard enough to make the earth turn to mud, but small puddles where still created. As Aaryn walked down the lane again and again, just thinking, she'd occasionally let her inner child go free and jump in a puddle or two. Aaryn marveled at how much she'd grown up since she'd come to this school. She'd only been here for half a year, but she felt as if she'd been here forever. It's amazing how much she'd grown up. And she wasn't sure whether she liked that. She was only fifteen for heavens sake. Did she really need to grow up? No, she didn't. But it happened anyway.

Her light grey hoodie was somewhat damp, as she had been walking for a little bit by now, but Aaryn did not care, it was still warm and cozy on the inside where all the fleece was. If it started raining to hard, she could always impervius herself. Aaryn wondered if Dezi had graduated to fourth year. Somehow, she doubted it. He had stopped going to classes pretty soon into the term. That was too bad for him.

Aaryn stuck her hands into her jeans pockets, shivering slightly. It was a little cold. She heard her stomach rumbling. She wanted to eat, but she didn't really want to go inside. So she'd go hungry for a little bit. She was at the edge of Rose Petal Lane again. She turned around and started walking in the opposite direction. She began singing quietly to herself. "Tell me where our time went, and if it was time well spent."

[robotboy]

Dezi had disappeared, that much was true. In all honesty, he needed a break. Alessa was in crumbles, or at least, that's what he thought. However, he'd found out that she was heard confessing her love for one of her best friends, Nathaniel Haake. The guy who had told him to 'watch your back'. So, if Alessa had loved this Nathaniel guy the whole time, there wasn't much room for her to love him. So was she really in love with him as much as she said? He was very confused as to whether to feel sorry for Alessa or to just... not.

Then, there were the dirty looks. People thought of him as a despicable human being just for the fact that he kissed a girl while dating Alessa. It was instinct. Not purposeful. He would take it back if he could. Wouldn't he? He was just so confused. Aaryn and him hadn't really spoken since, so he was wondering whether the kiss meant anything to her.

All of this built up on the young boy, and he couldn't cope. Thus, he went back to Italy. His friends were able to cheer him up and get him back to his usual self, but now that he was back at Trio's, he was a bit depressed again. The Mihael boy didn't really have many friends. Not even a girlfriend anymore. Sighing, he wandered around Rose Petal Lane in the spitting rain. His hands were in the pocket of a Drop Dead, Gorgeous hoodie he was wearing, and his light blue skinny jeans were snug to his legs, Vans splashing a bit in puddles.

Suddenly, he heard a voice singing quietly. His head raised slowly, straight, messy-ish black hair partially covering his chocolate brown eyes. There ahead of him was Aaryn, walking in the rain, looking pretty tense with the cold. Immediately, his face lit up. A smile fell upon his lips and his eyes twinkled. Biting his lip, his snakebites in place, he tip-toed up behind her. Unzipping his hoodie quietly, he draped it over her shoulders and came up beside her, murmuring, "You looked kind of cold."

Dezi stopped walking, looking at Aaryn as she stood before him. He was taller than her, now standing in a gray t-shirt with robots on it. Sure, he was a bit cold, but he wouldn't let her know that. No way. He would get pneumonia before letting her be cold.

[xxbrokenheartxx]

"Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again," she sang.

Aaryn thought she heard footsteps behind her, but she ignored them. How could they be terribly important. Then she felt someone drape a sweater or something over her shoulders. Instant warmth flowed through her body. She smiled softly. Then she wondered, who the person was. Her question was answered by a voice behind her. I thought you looked cold. Aaryn grinned and spun around. In front of her was none other than Dezi Moretti.

She gave him a huge hug. It was him! He was back. For a moment, she forgot that she was supposed to be mad at him for disappearing. It was him. She forgot about Pierce for a second and was about to give him a peck on the lips. Then she realized how weird that would be, so she switched to the cheek. A cheek kiss wouldn't hurt Pierce, would it? Dezi was just an friend. Ya, right, Aaryn, you keep believing that. She pulled away from the hug.

"Where the hell have you been Mistuh Moretti?" she asked, trying to look serious, but a smile trying to break away from her lips.

Now that Dezi was back, things where all different. It was crazy much. She wasn't sure what was going to happen. Maybe now that Dezi was back, they would find they didn't like each other anymore and Aaryn could just date Pierce for a while. Maybe they'd have something in common. But Aaryn didn't really hope that. The only thing that Pierce had over Dezi was he was a little bit older, so he knew how to kiss better. Only thing! Wait. No. Pierce had something else. Did he?

Gah! Aaryn was so confuzzled right now.

[robotboy]

Seeing Aaryn so enthusiastic and happy to see him only made Dezi's smile widen. At least someone cared about him. Yet, it was special that Aaryn was happy to see him. If it were just any ol' person, he wouldn't be as glad. She was special. The kiss they shared, even though it was just instinct, showed him something that he might've been hiding deep down in his heart. He liked her. Maybe it all started when he protected her from that creepy guy that was watching her: Akito, was it? Or maybe it was when they started pranking Ms. Kohn and 'coughing on bugs'. He didn't know when or how it happened, but he discovered from the kiss that this girl meant something to him. What that something was, he couldn't quite place.

But he hoped she felt the same.

Perhaps things had changed because of him leaving. Maybe she moved on and didn't like him anymore. Maybe she even had a new boyfriend. He was never her boyfriend, after all. Yet, his thoughts were broken when she threw her arms around him and gave him a big hug. He gratefully hugged her back, enjoying the warmth she gave off, as he was now bit cold because he was wearing a tight t-shirt out in the rain. At least it was only spitting. Then, a kiss on the cheek made him grin, and he glanced down at her.

Aaryn. Perhaps she did like him. So happy to see him, a hug and kiss on the cheek? Didn't that hint at a crush? However, Avery hugged and kissed people who were just her friends all the time. Maybe Aaryn was just like that, too. He wouldn't get his hopes up, because his heart was very fragile, and he didn't want it to break again. Contrary to popular belief, his heart did break when him and Alessa broke up. Even though it was his stupid fault. He did love her. But, they grew apart and his love faded, after awhile.

At the swearing and the asking of the question, Dezi bit his lip again, playing with his snakebites idly. Scratching the back of his head, he chuckled a bit and said, "Heh. Um..." He shrugged, not really wanting to say, 'I'm a big baby and ran home to my mommy and friends to get comfort.' So instead, he replied with, "I just couldn't handle the... Alessa thing... And then everyone at the school was trash talking me and giving me dirty looks. So, I went home to Venice for awhile to get my friends to cheer me up. Now I'm back!"

Then, in a last attempt for her not to explode on him, he pleaded, "Please don't kill me!" Smiling at Aaryn, he continued to walk beside her, looking up at the gray sky as the rain drizzled down on them. He ran a hand through his black hair, even though it just flattened back down again.

Grinning at the Slytherin, he asked, "So, I didn't move up a year. We're not going to have classes together. Pretty much the lamest thing ever. Sorry. But congrats on you moving up! How are you doing, anyway?" With that, he just gazed at her with soft brown eyes, waiting for her response.

[xxbrokenheartxx]

Of course Aaryn cared about him. Why would else would she have kissed him? Duuuuuh. This was a no brainer. When had the crush started? She wasn't sure. When they started being friends? Again, she wasn't sure, but she remembered when they met like it was just the other day. She was sitting in Transfiguration class, next to Izzie Goth [what had happened to her?] and like, three people came and sat next/near her and Dezi was one of them. They hadn't really talked, Dezi had just introduced himself, he had really been there for Izzie. Though she'd never admit it.

Aaryn had a "boyfriend" but not really. She hardly considered Pierce a boyfriend, but she supposed she could call it that. They were going to the dance together, they had kissed twice and they were going to go on a dinner date. So there was a bunch of stuff they were going to do that was boyfriend/girlfriend like, but she didn't want to admit they were. They weren't really serious. And she was sure they were going to get less serious because Dezi was back. But she hoped not. Because she had finally settled down.

Aaryn did like him. And she liked Pierce. It was all confuzzling. The hug and the kiss was only something she did because he was a friend, nothing more, even if she did like Dezi, she'd never "cheat" on Pierce because she didn't want to get him upset. She'd wait until they broke up before she did anything. But Dezi had seemed happy when she kissed him on the cheek and she wasn't about to say, oh, I just do that to friends. She'd just leave it at that.

Dezi bit down on his bottom lip. Oh no. Not good. Oh well. He began to talk about why he left. So basically he couldn't take it and ran home to mommy and water, came that irritating voice in her head. Maybe she didn't want to like such a wimp. But she did. And she liked Pierce, a non-wimp. But the thing was, that Aaryn liked Dezi more. Aaryn already had a kinda-sorta boyfriend person she was dating, why did she have to think things like that and screw up her relationship with Pierce.

Aaryn grinned a little. "I won't kill you today," Aaryn said, "but you better watch your back." She laughed a little. Of course she wouldn't kill him. She loved Dezi. Whether she loved him more than a friend. That was yet to be determined.

"That is the lamest thing ever," Aaryn said, "and your stuck with the stupidest teachers ever. Gregory and this new TA Evans. Cause mischief in Evans' class for me?"

She wanted Dezi to carry on her legacy. Maybe it wasn't all bad. But it would still suck not having Mistuh Dezi in her class anymore. He was so much fun. Aaryn pulled Dezi's coat around her tighter. Now was the time to tell him about Pierce. "You know, Dezi," she said, sounding excited, "I met this kid, Pierce James, while you were gone, and he's really nice. We're going to the Halloween ball together, and we're kinda dating. Like, nothing serious, no commitment or anything, but ya, we're dating."

She had sounded excited. Could it possibly be that Aaryn Saeumi was trying to make the Mihael boy jealous?

[robotboy]

Smiling back, Dezi was glad he wouldn't die today. Tomorrow would be better, perhaps. Today he was with Aaryn, and didn't want to miss out on the chance of hanging out with her for awhile! Nodding his head, he decided he would watch his back. And he would sleep with one eye open - no! Both eyes open. How that was possible, he didn't know, but surely it wasn't impossible.

Again, the boy nodded his head. It really did suck that he wouldn't have classes with Aaryn. She was fun to help him annoy teachers, and he didn't really have the confidence to bother teachers by himself. In fact, he liked to bother teachers in a subtle, cute way, rather than straight out yelling at them. It was more fun, and he felt less mean. He shrugged his shoulders. Greggory wasn't that bag, was he? Though he didn't know Evans very much. Oh well. "Maybe. Depends if I'm in the mood or not."

See, when he wasn't too happy, he didn't really feel like bugging teachers. And he might not be too happy in class because he didn't really know anyone other than Aaryn. Yet, maybe he'd just be grumpy and not be very participate-y. He felt bad though, because Avery tried and did very well with classes, and he felt like he was letting down the family name if he acted up in classes. He'd have to act up out of class, like she does. [:

What Aaryn said next made Dezi's thoughts halt dead in their tracks. As soon as she said she met someone, he had a bad feeling. This feeling was confirmed by her furthering her explanation, saying they were going to the ball and dating and stuff. She seemed quite happy, though what she added in at the end made him suspicious, like maybe she still liked him. He felt shot down, though, so his heart was hurting.

However, he covered up his disappointment and sadness with a smile. "That's awesome! I'm very happy to hear about that. He's a lucky guy." Biting his lip, he felt jealous, and wanted to make her feel the same way. Casually, he added, "I'm going to the ball with someone to. A Mihael. Her name is Cateline Pomeroy." Suddenly, Dezi felt silly, like they were battling each other with who had moved on first.

Truth was, he hadn't moved on at all.

[xxbrokenheartxx]

It was totally possible to sleep with both eyes open. Aaryn's BFF from when she was twelve, his brother slept with both his eyes open. It was probably pretty scary though. To come in and see someone just staring at you. Then you talk to them and they just stare at you back because they are really asleep. Imagine that.

"Maybe?" Aaryn cocked an eyebrow, "pfft, you'll have to be in a good mood. But, we could go to Muggle Studies together. I hear they group third through fourth years. That might be fun." 'course Gregory was bad. He strayed from the curriculum, the headmistress told her herself, because Aaryn had written a letter to her about him, and he had atrocious grammar. You should have seen the finals. All un-understandable and such. She had insulted him. And Evans. She shuddered at the thought. She was horrid.

But Dezi doesn't have to live up to his sister's name. Dezi was his own person, not his sister's sock puppet. He should act the way he wants to act and not let Missus Moretti get in the way. Don't get her wrong, she thought Avery was a great person, but she had to be good, being Quidditch Captain and all. Like, she was in a position of authority and all. So Dezi shouldn't base what he does on her.

Aaryn had suceeded in her mission. Dezi was jealous. Although she didn't want to admit that she wanted to make him jealous, because she was moving on. Right? And how did she know he was jealous. Maybe he just looked like that because of the rainy weather. Dezi had probably moved on anyway. And she wasn't supposed to care. Because of Pierce. She had a kinda sorta boyfriend. Gah! Aaryn was being stupid.

Aaryn smiled, because he had smiled. Then he bit his lip again. Then he added he was going to the ball with Cateline Pomeroy. Aaryn had never heard of her. Aaryn sighed a little, but not enough to be shown. So Dezi really didn't care. Aaryn fiddled with her thumbs a bit. He had moved on. And she said she had, but the truth was, she hadn't. "Oh," Aaryn said, "thats, um, great! She'll be happy." Aaryn wanted to add, your a great dancer, but she didn't really know how Dezi danced. Because she had never had the chance to dance with him.

Oh, why couldn't Pierce do the great disappearing act too? That way Aaryn could just confess her feelings for Dezi without Pierce getting in the way...

[robotboy]

Wow, that's quite amazing. It's probably not good for the eyes though. They need to get moist and stuff. If you slept with your eyes open, they wouldn't get moist and they'd just dry up and fall right out of their sockets. That would be quite disturbing. So hopefully, that wouldn't happen. Luckily, Dezi slept with his eyes closed.

Dezi smiled a bit at Aaryn, shrugging his shoulders. The only optional class he took was Divination. He had taken Dueling before, but Hermione Chambers was a very difficult T.A. to make happy, so he didn't feel very keen on signing up for her class again. "I didn't sign up for Muggle Studies, actually. I know everything about muggles, growing up basically as one with lots of muggle friends." Then he thought for a moment, and said after a pause, "Although... It would be an easy pass if I show up to every class. Do you want me to keep you company there by signing up?"

Hopefully, Aaryn did want Dezi's company. Although, he definitely wasn't sure anymore. She probably wanted Pierce's company more. He hated the boy, even though he didn't know him. This made him feel a bit bad, because he wasn't a hateful kind of guy, but he just didn't like the guy for the reason that he felt like he stole Aaryn away from him. Sighing a bit, he shook his head a little and looked down at his shoes, then up at the gray clouds.

'All's fair in love and war.'

There was nothing Dezi could do about it if they were in a relationship. He wasn't a creepy, controlling person. Aaryn could do whatever she liked. He'd just be depressed. Of course, he wouldn't show it, because he didn't show his true emotions that easily. Nope. He was all bottled up inside. Unfortunately, the bottle never exploded to let out some of the tension. It just imploded, causing him more harm: this was normally when he had a breakdown and went home.

Looking over at Aaryn as she commented about Cateline, he smiled. It was a fake smile, of course, but she would never be able to tell. He nodded his head. The dance would be fun. Cateline was sweet, and he was actually looking forward to getting to know her better after their little meetings here and there. He instantly felt bad about using her to try and make Aaryn jealous, and decided he'd never do that again.

The boy felt awkward by now. She moved on. She actually moved on. He hadn't, but she might assume that he had by the fact he was going to the dance with Cateline. That would be wrong, though. All he could think about was her. He didn't have anyone else. All his friends at this school were gone, except Avery, of course. There was just Aaryn.

But she didn't like him anymore.

His heart was beating rapidly, but not in a good way. He felt a bit sick to his stomach, as well. Wiping his face a bit, he ran his hand through his hair and glanced down at Aaryn once more, giving her a half hearted smile. "What do you want to do?" He wanted to do anything but talk about Pierce. Anything.