Journal Of A Living Illusion

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

~Illusion Rayne~

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Save The Last Lollipop For Me.


This is the possession of Miss Illusion Rayne. If Found Please Return To The Mihael in Question. These are my own thoughts, and my time spent at Trio’s Hogwarts. Please respect this property.

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[Illusion Avery Rayne]

My Inner Most Thoughts. Entry One

Today I finally have the time to write in you. Adam thought this would be a great way to contemplate my feelings over the things that have happened most recently in my life. Lets see if this works. We'll start with the beginning of the year.

The beginning of this year began like most, I got promoted to a third year. Congratulations you say, yes well, I find it tough. Don't get me wrong, I like school, I love to learn, but sometimes you just have to take a break. I may sound a bit, winy, yet your just a book, you wouldn't know what it's like to be a witch.

Next issue, I had not seen my boyfriend Cody for a long time, once my return to the school, I spent a long time thinking it over, and I really thought the two of us would break up. When I heard that he had been seeing another girl behind my back, I was broken. Somehow, Cody and I mended, the large break in our relationship and we're still together. Knowing myself, if I ever found the other girl. I might rip her to pieces, but that's just a slight evil side to me.

Good Issues if that's even possible with those first two explanations. I got to reconnect with my old friend Samantha Lewis. I felt so much better knowing she was by my side threw out all of this. During this term, I have met a lot of good people, and found old friends, Gryphon, Rath, Kera, David, Sabra, Jacob. The list goes on, so I suppose that I can't say that this year was all a bust right?

Family Issues yes another BAD Illusion issue, as I told Adam, I'm a mess. My family, I know I have several family members here at Trios, yet I haven't found them so the search is on for them. My mother and father have divorced much to my dismay, at first I was broken, torn to little bits and tossed like birthday confetti. Slowly my heart mended, I suppose spending time with my real brother helped me get threw it, and everything else in my life.

I suppose this is all I have to wrap up right now. I promise I'll tell you more about my day, instead of my life tomorrow.

-I'm talking to a BOOK.. Be afraid!-

Illusion Rayne

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

Perplexed Thoughts Entry Two

Today was a interesting day, I have met Brie Ally. Very interesting girl to talk with, she gave me alot to think about. One of the many things, the girls name of whom Cody, had also fallen for. Ally Trinton. I have met this girl once, and we never hit it off. So now I know the name of the girl who had ripped my heart and tossed it aside. Could it be possible that I'm now a target to her? That I have won Cody back, and that she, is scorned, that she didn't get him. I won't lie. Cody isn't a prize, he's more than that to me. If this Ally girl, continues to fraternize with Cody, I'll have to have a word with her -Wand 2 Wand.-

Myself, I feel fine, today was a good day, despite the factors turned in. I'm thinking I may go swimming sometime soon, once it warms up. I myself believe I need to get to know the castle more, maybe I should go down to the dungeons. No not like a princess being locked up by her evil step aunt. I've got several friends in the Slytherin house, maybe I can find them there. Mihael common room, has gotten dull, I wish I could meet more of the fascinating people within these walls. Well I'm already out of things to say.

Bid You Goodnight.

Illusion Rayne

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

Flipping Awsome Entry Three

Well I have alot to announce. My mother, has desided to adopt another daughter. Hoping to raise her without my father. I am quite content with the idea. She should be arriving to Trios soon. Mother has instructed to me, to get to know the girl. If I get along with her well enough, she will be my new sister. So far what I have learned about this girl, is her name is Keladry 'Kel' Elliot, from deep Asia, she was born and raised there. Kel won't know much about Britian, she also was a foster child for most of her life, since she was two.

Another thing, I suppose every good has a bad. My older brother Adam, had moved. He is now stationed in Australia. He will still write to me, but I will no longer be able to stay at his home in deep Britian. His long time girlfriend, was not informed, so I have to stop by her store in Diagon Ally, and tell her what has happened to my older brother.

Also I like to show you my newest picture I have taken. It is so beautiful, I really think I have gotten better at taking pictures. Being myself, I don't use the magical soltion that makes the pictures move. I'm thinking of giving it to my friend Gryphon, she seemed interested in the whole idea that I take snap shots, This is full of color and life.. I find it soothing..

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

Hardships Entry Four

I suppose I have taken neglect of you Journal. Everything has been so.. Busy here at the school. I have taken on my own share of work, and spending every moment to think. Thinking is all I seem to have time for anymore, with the summer holiday coming up, I will have a lot more to do. With Kel now as my sister, we have to go and visit my father and mother spending different weeks with one of them, since the divorce I have not had to go threw this sweet torment since I stayed with my brother, but with Adam gone, I finally have to face the sweet cookies with milk. Although Keladry isn¡¯t my fathers responsibility, only my mother, being she is the main care provider, Kel has agreed to go threw the changes with me. No doubt Samantha will visit, she will be driven crazy I can see it already, but then again she has Xianex to spend the summer holiday with. I¡¯m not complaining, because I have Cody, and I know since his baby brother is a tad older, he and I will spend SOME time together this Summer.

Maybe I am complaining? Should I really not be? My parents got divorced in secret, kept it from me over an entire summer holiday, and didn¡¯t tell me till after school started, knowing I¡¯d be to worried about seeing my friends, than their little quarrel. Broken, would be a word for it. They had brought my brother into this, making him take care of me over the summer, and then having him lie to me, when I wondered why I got separate letters from my parents. Somehow I wish I could talk with someone about this. Samantha wouldn¡¯t want to hear my complaints, Cody doesn¡¯t need any more stress to his life, Keladry well she¡¯s confused enough from my Simple life. Sigh, for once I wish I wasn¡¯t worried about everyone else, and was able to take care of my own needs. Yet I don¡¯t know who to turn to.

Really there are a lot of things I wish I could do. Fly would be one thing and turning invisible would be another. To tell anyone about my problem, without them taking pity on me, that¡¯s a big one. To marry a movie star, even if I have one of my own. (¢¾Cody) To have a NORMAL LIFE. Well that is a short yet fulfilled list of things I want, yet in short reality I can¡¯t have those things. -rolls eyes- Lets try some simple things I CAN do. I can talk to someone, and not care what they will think. Get a better relationship with my friends, and boyfriend. Understand my new weird sister, and how it was like to live in Asia. Get over the fear of my parents divorce. Attempt to not trip over Kitten, this summer holiday. Try not to kill self, when walking down a busy muggle street. Get over my fear of singing in front of people. Take better pictures, and give them out to friends. Learn to draw from Kel. Get a better understanding why Xianex is so weird, well SHY. And last but not least, realize that my own faults makes me the person I am, and know that even if I find that I can¡¯t walk another step my friends are there, holding chocolate chip muffins in front of my face, making me move faster.




Simply Illusion

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

Broken Hearted Entry Five

Bit harsh of a title right? I don’t think so. I am honestly thinking these things. Cody and I have been dating since our first year. I feel like we’re drifting. I haven’t seen him in a long while. Missing him is an understatement. Neglected is one word for it. Have he and I drifted so apart, that I’m not important anymore? Harsh, but my friends opinions help me, we haven’t seen much of each other, we’ve kissed once. I don’t feel that Cody and I have a relationship, as girlfriend, boyfriend anymore, to me it has changed more than ever to being just two really good friends, who see each other on occasion. Heart breaking. It disturbs me. If Cody and I continue to go out, I feel like I’m neglecting him some how. Me as his girlfriend, should know everything or almost everything about him, but I feel like I only scratched the surface. I see all the other couples of the school, and have to feel terrible, because Cody and I don’t have that relationship, I barely get to see him. Maybe I’m over reacting? I honestly need to talk with Cody, as openly as I do as I write in this leather bound journal. I love Cody. But is it as how I felt when he and I met?

Kel has become a helpful creative girl, who I know I’ll grow to love. Although we don’t know to much about each other. I know I have someone to turn in her. My friends are someone I need to talk about Cody as well. Their opinions matter. I know where Sam lies. She is friends with both Cody and I. But she told me I could do better. Is that honestly where I stand with all my other friends, that I could do better than Cody? Honestly I don’t know of anyone else I would feel comfortable with, like I do with Cody. After that fall out with Ally, maybe Cody feels that he could do better than me?

I better go. It’s late, and writing by wand-light hurts my eyes, and I think I hear one of my Dorm Mates waking up.

Help Me Dearest Cody

Love Illusion

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

Gossip… Or True. I’d Say True. Entry Six

What would hook ups be without the Crushes, break ups and the drifting apart ? It seems our very own 3rd year Illusion Rayne has been missing a certain person in her love life. Mr. Cody Welsh. Torn, neglected? We haven’t seen the two of you together around the grounds for a while, where’d you go? I do hope this isn’t then end of a relationship that has lasted for so many terms [ because it is one of the only ones ].

Well this is lovely. Posted in the school newspaper. Everyone knows, and sees it… I’m now, kinda known to the school. As a girl who’s boyfriend and herself have drifted apart. Simply lovely, we’ll there’s good news in that article, the bit about the long relationship, when others have faltered… Joy to the flipping crazed world.

Well Brie and I have become really close. The Ally Drowning was FUN! Yes your probably thinking, Illy has gone crazy. But seriously, that’s where Brie’s and myself have common ground. We both despise the girl named Ally Trinton, and the whole fact that Brie has a picture of her, just made the whole situation so much better. Drowning the picture in the lake, after being spit on and torn to itty bitty pieces, but you’d have to be there… Wait.. You we’re.. Hehe

Another thing that is troubling me, is what Jacob told me days before the Ally Downing. He told me he loved me.. Jacob is like my brother.. He said he meant nothing by it.. But I know him better, so after all these years, he has come clean, he has a crush on me. Surprised.. Yes.. Very. With everything that is going on with Cody and I. I could never see Jacob more than a brother/friend. I honestly love Cody, I told him that.. But if Cody officially goes from my life. I’d be very depressed. Along with the whole Jacob loves me bit, I know how Jacob feels about Cody. I believe he called him a butt face… It made me so angry, and it hurt, because the way he mocked how I wrote in you. He said I only wrote about Cody.. Sure he’s a main topic, but not the only thing in my life. Just a main one right now. He also stole you. Which made me more enraged. He pushed me to far. When he insulted Cody. He was insulting me, because I’m dating him. Or was it I who over-reacted?

Oh, some stuff have been going on with Brie, so she’s going to be staying with me and Kel. Not that I blame her, something is wrong at her home, and not to mention there is Ally there.. I wonder where the Frog Princess went to? I never had the pleasure, of talking to her Wand 2 Wand. Hehe…


Sweet Marshmallows Of The Great Silver Bag.

Illusion Rayne

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

My Thoughts Are Arranged

Well it has finally happened. I have found someone who completely understands me. He is my dear cousin, Brent Raven. After the long break, my cousin and I have come to an understanding. I feel bad, about placing my troubles on him, especially when his mother had passed away just a few months ago. But he assured me, that he could handle it. I told him everything, breaking myself into tears. And guess what, he helped me get threw everything that plagues me, he placed it out there in front of me, in perfect speaking terms. It's kindda sad that he had to tell me about it, so simply when I could have easily came up with it myself. Sigh.

Here is what I have came up with. First lets start with Mr. Cody Welsh. Next time I have a chance to talk with him, (whenever that is) I will tell him what I think, none of this, just simple talking. I will have to be tough on him. But can you blame me? Ever since Cody and I have dated, things haven't gone to well, with his disapearances and with his constant girl crushes, with various girls in his year. Maybe that's what plagues me. I'm just getting to out of his league. I don't mean that in a a mean way, I just don't understand anymore.

My friends, another thing that presses my mind all the time. I have chosen to let my friends be my friends. If they don't like something that I do in my life. Oh well, that is what friends are for, I'm not going to like everything they do, why should I do the same? Besides, they all have their own troubles, why add to it? Knowing that many don't like Cody + Me = Dating? But that's for me to deside.. Not them. If they don't like it, to bad. Their my friends, they have to get used to it either way.

I have finished with this simple entry. I shall come up with another, soon.

It's All Over For

Illusion Rayne

[Illusion Avery Rayne]

S.O.S: It’s Like I’m Walking On Broken Glass

Can you say life sucks? 5X’s Fast. No I’m being serious. Illy Lu, is being serious. Say Life Sucks 5x’s as fast as you can. Okay, I’m tired of these games. No, this is going to be serious. I know, I’m going to rant all about Cody, like I do all the time in this stupid blasted thing. Well, I’m going to make this my last, entry about Cody. Sure I might mention him once or twice. But I have given entirely up on Mr. Cody Welsh. Why you ask? Well no reason really. Just the fact that he’s a heartbreaker. No, I don’t care, that we broke up. No that doesn’t hurt. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. We just never had the time, to get to know each other. I suppose I should write it all up in this pretty little thing. Like I always do. So predictable. Well I should start when I was 5 years old and I fell down those stairs. No I’m kidding, I’m not writing my entire childhood in you. I’ll do that another time. When I feel better.

No, lets just start with these past few days. Well, lets start with the first juicy, tid bit of information. Nessa and Brayden broke up. Okay, that’s sad next bit, Brie was somehow dragged into it, saying something along the lines of, the reason why the two broke up. It’s always someone else.-rolls eyes- Well that’s all I know so far. I’ll keep you updated. Now, onto Illy Lu’s Drama. Which you might as well, like hex the living crud out of me. Now. Here we go!

Well, Cody and I broke up. Yes, wonderful isn’t it. -sarcasm- Lets see. I knew that Cody and I wouldn’t last much longer. He apologized for hurting me, threw the whole time we we’re dating. Nice guy huh. Wrong. Sure, I forgive him. -slightly- No. This is where this gets interesting. Soon after, our break up. Guess who Mr. Cody Welsh is seen kissing. Cheh. Days after our, break up he goes, back to his old ways. Some guy’s never change. No, what is most interesting, is whom Cody was kissing. Ms. Ally Trinton. Yes the Siren herself. The one person, whom I hate with a passion. Wait till I tell Brie. What’s most disappointing, is he didn’t even give himself a chance to think things threw. I would have felt tons better, if it was Ms. Ashley Tapping, personally. The two suited each other better, than the Siren -really she’s a Kraken, or more of a mix.- I’ll tell you for sure, what I’m sure she is, when I get that far. Well, anyways. I hope the two make wonderful Spawn together.. And I hope that for once, Cody can be happy, since no matter what I did. I could never satisfy him. If he, tries to talk with me. Well, HA!! He’ll get something, that has been waiting for him for a long time. A cold shoulder, and the loss of a friend. Because, if he wanted to truly be my friend. He would have never gone out with Ally Trinton.

PS: Kitten Is Still Missing.

Lets Call This A Draw

Illusion Rayne