Counting Stars [Gia]

[giannine]

Date: June 12, 2007
Dearest Journal:
Mood: Confuzzled

Roses are Red
Violets are...Blue, oddly enough
You're my new journal, so I'm writing in you!

Mama must think I've become depressed or something. The last time she forced me to write in a journal was when...alas, despite you being nothing but paper I don't feel comfortable talking about LaLa or Daddy in here. Perhaps another time.

The year is progressing interestingly. I haven't seen JT in weeks, and I feel kind of sad about that. I'm not mad at him for standing me up at the ball. I'm sure he really did have something important to do. His mother's picture is on my nightstand. Gosh she's so pretty. She's still smiling at me, and I have no clue why. Well....I kind of do, but I'm not sure if she should be. I mean, there's always Mystery Boy...

Mystery Boy. My favorite train of thought. So odd...yet very interesting. Ever since we met at the lake, I've had trouble concentrating on anything else. What is it about that guy that just makes me all...weird and funny feeling? Does he have some kind of contagious disease? Perhaps I should bring that up at our next 'encounter'.

The end of the year is coming up soon, and I'm not sure if I want to go home. Now, don't misunderstand Journal, Mama is the best. I love her with all my heart and would love to visit...but this is my first real time on my own in all my 15 years. And with all the friends I've made here, I don't know if I can go home and not talk to them, because with my laziness around the house I'd probably never answer or send an owl.

Classes are really heating up. Dueling Tactics is my favorite by far, but I definitely made some mistakes last class. After this I'm going to get cracking on my essay for Auror Chambers, so I won't get in trouble like I did last time. I heard that some of the teachers are going to fail students who don't speak up enough in class, or show up. I think I'll make a point to talk more, because I really want to go to second year. And the teachers are so wonderful, I'd hate to disappoint any of them.

Wow, I really sound like a goody goody, don't I? Well, I think I'm going to go find Aaryn and maybe explain that I accidentally spilled some of my sleeping draught on her candies. I'll take my wand, just in case.

For now,
Gia

[giannine]

Date: June 15, 2007
Dearest Journal:
Mood: Ecstatically Amazing!

The year goes by fast
Knowledge crammed into the brain
The end is too near.

Things are looking very very up for Ms. Gia Lancaster, if I do say so myself. I'm actually making progress on my Dueling Tactics essay, which will be turned in before the next class. And I spent time with Ms. Toes, who totally wasn't mad about the spilled sleeping draught....*yawn*....because she got me back! Aaryn really is an amazing friend. I love spending time with her. We talked a little about summer, light conversation and all, but maybe she really can spend the summer with me.....if her mom doesn't go psycho and say no....her mom sounds different, to say the least.

Anyways, my big news: I found out the name of Mystery Boy!!! So now he's not Mystery Boy anymore!!! His name is Erick, and his sister is Brie Alley. I laughed when he told me, because he had been talking about how he doesn't like his sister with an older guy, and I met Brie after she cried over some guy...whose name I never got. I really hope she wasn't crying over Tristam....because he's awful nice, playboy that he is. But, back on topic, I know his name! And he knows mine! And I have no idea why that's such an amazing thing to talk about!!!

But yes, I'm starting to study for the exams. I'll have to drag Aaryn to the library one of these days. Oh! Time for dinner! I'll be back to write more later, promise!

For now,
Gia[/size][/font]

[giannine]

Date: June 24, 2007
Dearest Journal:
Mood: Terribly Tired

As I write this, sleep and tears are rubbed from my eyes and the soft breathing of all my roommates stir the dust in the room.

I had the dream again. Only, it's not quite a dream. More of a nightmare. It always starts the same; Me and Mum trying to get to the house that Laura's in. Crowds, looking at us, whispering, knowing what we should have realized, but pay no attention to in our concerned state. Then, the fire. Dark Mark. Body bags. Mum's screaming, crying, people are trying to help her. And then I wake up.

It's always so...vivid. And everytime I wake up, I'm crying. There are some days when I don't have it...but those don't last. It always comes back. Always.

I suppose my real question is: Why? What purpose does this serve, other than to scare the crap out of me and make me very gloomy? Only time will tell, unfortunately.

The other girls are waking up; I should get ready. There are no classes today, but maybe I'll find something to do. Not in a terribly social mood, anyways.

For now,
Gia.[/size][/font]

[giannine]

Date: July 2, 2007
Dearest Journal:
Mood: Sad

So the term's almost over, and I'm passing all my classes (yay!) and so is Ms. Toes (yay yay!), but I still miss Jess, Samara, and JT. It's just kind of sad when I think about them. I guess Jess must have been called back home, maybe something with her parents? Samara . . . I dunno. And JT . . . I'm not going to go there right now.

The dream's been okay lately. For the most part, I sleep without it. But I don't think I'll be as lucky tonight. I got a copy of the Daily Prophet today, and there was a huge article about Auror Chambers' husband, Auror Chambers (terrible joke, =\). Joshua Chambers. A breakout from Azkaban . . . really makes you think. I mean, I'm not a stranger to losing a loved one, but a husband? That must be excruciating. I really hope Auror Chambers is going to be alright.

Nothing to report on Mystery Boy, I'm afraid. We did talk a bit in the Common Room, and I did figure out why he makes me feel all weird (more on that later; Kelly is such a wonderful person ^_^ ), but other than that, nada. Wonder if Brie knows anything . . .

Lately I've been getting this really creepy feeling in the back of my spine. Like someone's been watching me, or following me. Of course, my confrontation in Hogsmeade didn't help, but I dunno. It's like something's happening, and I should know what's going on, but I don't. Will talk to Aaryn about this.

Far as break, I think I might stay here. Mom's latest owl wasn't very promising, but I'd rather not dwell on that right now. Oh! Time for my HoM exam. I'll write more later.

For now,
Gia[/size]

[giannine]

Date: July 9, 2007
Dearest Journal:
Mood: Relieved

Wow! I've finished my first term!! And, so far as I know, I've passed all my exams. Which is cool, since that means I get to go to second year! Ms. Toes and I have been catching up, but I'm still not sure if we're staying together or if she's coming with me. We haven't talked at all about that, and I really don't want us to decide like . . . on the train. Because that would be weird.

Speaking of Ms. Toes, she told me about a guy she randomly kissed. Damn Randomness Bunny. ahahaha. But seriously, I dunno. I've met Holden before, and he seems really cool (and his coolness has gone up since Aaryn thinks he's cool too), but does she like him? I mean, I've never seen them together, so I dunno. But if she gets butterflies, then I think I can relate.

Which reminds me, I forgot to ask Erick if he's staying over break or not. Hm, if I had done that, then I would definitely know if I'm staying or not. Not that um . . . oh forget it. I'm lovesick, and it's making me feel all girly. It's so ridiculous sometimes.

Haven't seen Akito or Kyri lately. Which is good. Ever since Hogsmeade . . . yeah.

Wow! Lost track of the time! Gotta go catch some sleep, then see Aaryn in the morning.

For now,
Gia[/size]

[giannine]

Date: July 11, 2007

Journal,

I didn't put my mood in or whatever because I'm just too gosh darn tired. I went to bed around one-ish [/size][Ms. Toes sings in her sleep; why was senorita shaking it?], and woke up at 7. Damn sun shining into our tent was unbearably bright, so I couldn't sleep anymore. Sasha's still in my cot/bed thingy, and she should still be there when I go to sleep tonight.

Oh! I ran into Mystery Boy yesterday when he smushed me. Kidding, I swear. He tripped over me while I was sitting under a huge sunflower [More on Sunflower Forest later], and then we went for a walk under the sunflowers. Nothing really happened . . . except he held my hand [for all of five seconds, but still.] I read far too much into the little things =\

Finally told Aaryn about Erick, btw. She was kind of mad-ish, but very happy for me. I feel bad that I didn't tell her when it was basically for all of the term that I knew him, but alas. Me and my bad memory.

Today is Mom's birthday. Shiner flew in soon after I woke up with an owl from her. The cruise is going well; yay! Currently she's on some virgin island. Honestly, how do islands lose their virginity? O.o [Insert disturbing thought here]

Well, anyways, it's her birthday. Happy 36th mum. I wish I could have been there with you, but I'm glad you're having fun on your godforsaken cruise on the prude island. I'll reply to your owl and send some photos back with Shiner. I just need to get one of Aaryn and me together . . .

She did send me my Underworld: Evolution soundtrack though. Very grateful, although I'm not sure how to get it to work when it's all 'no muggle electronics' here. Will ask Aaryn. Actually, she sent me my whole CD case, since I won't be able to go home and grab the things I need. I'll owl her and ask her to mail some more clothes too. I can only wear the same shirt so many days a week.

Gah, breakfast time. Ms. Toes is waking up, so I think we'll head out for some food. I'll write more later.

For now,
Gia

[giannine]

September 1, 2007

Journal,

Things have been . . . quiet lately. I mean, when the term started, I was bursting with energy, and after the Ball I was waaaay too happy to write a single thing. It seems like the high of realizing your crush likes you back overpowers all. But then the high was replaced with depression, because I haven't seen Erick since then. It's actually quite upsetting. I mean, he tells me he likes me, I tell him I like him . . . and then? Nothing. At all. Is there some kind of power that forces us to never finish a conversation? I mean, I can recollect all of that night, but after I tell him . . . blankity blank blank. Ever so frustrating.

And Ms. Toes. I'm not sure if I want to hug her and see if I can make her Gryffie at heart, or smack her with my flip flops. I mean, GOOD LORD, THE EFFING PROPHET WROTE ABOUT HER KISSING A TAKEN BOY!!!!! I know Ms. Toes has a tendency to randomly kiss boys [July 9 entry], but a taken boy? Not a good idea. I gave said boy [writing his name just makes me irked] a dirty look, but now I feel kind of bad about it. I mean, Ms. Toes and I haven't even talked about it yet. She tried in Potions, but then I would have caused something to blow up, so I cut her off. We're meeting tomorrow, I think. Or maybe the next day. Maybe she's too caught up with her other new friends to hang out with Ms. Frogs. Shouldn't dwell on that.

Classes have been fairly uneventful, but Ms. Kohn has left. Can't say I'll miss her. Our new D.A.D.A. T.A., Mr. Holden, seems cool enough, but he bears a striking resemblance to this sekkie Ravenclaw. It's almost uncanny. I'm in Dueling Tactics again, but I missed the first class because I was sick. I would've done the homework, but it's one of those 'apply what you learned in class' essays, so I was screwed. We were supposed to have class a few weeks ago, but it never happened. I should pay Auror Chambers a visit if she's not too busy.

Mum hasn't written lately, not since she returned from her cruise. All she told me was that she had met some guy. . . I dunno if I should be elated or murderous about that idea. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for me mum to get a new man, but in all honesty, I guess I feel that it would be wrong to Dad and Laura. If they were still here, she definitely wouldn't be with another guy. But they're not . . . and I'm accepting it now. However, since I haven't gotten the prescribed dose of Ms. Toes and Mystery Boy, the dream has started making an appearance again.

Oh, there's an Exploding Snap game going on downstairs. I think I'll watch.

For now,
Gia.[/size][/font]