[forbid] JAGANSHI;; beware

[Forbid Jaganshi]

..property of forbid ayae jaganshi..
>>do not TOUCH<<
``beware``

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Sunday, the First Day of the Seventh Month; in Two Thousand Seven. Three Thirty-Seven in the Morning.

Located in the Dormitory of the Mihaels.

Dear Diary BOB,

I refuse to call you 'diary', you shalt forever be known as BOB whenever people ask of you. They probably won't though because I'm not telling a soul about you nor your contents so HA! They can just keep on wondering until I decide I can tell them something. Now won't they just be sooo dissapointed? Well then BOB; what should I tell you about today?

Mmkay. Kage got herself hurt by Akito while in the dungeons. I guess that isn't all that surprising. I always get hurt in someway when I see him. It isn't any surprise that Kage would get hurt as well. Ah well. She told me Tithe was there. Do you know who Tithe is? Meh, I guess you wouldn't...

Tithe is my other older brother. He's more like me then the rest of my siblings. Kage doesn't like him but she doesn't like anybody so I'm not going to say anything about that. Well from what I know he knows Akito. Do they get along? Oh I sure hope they do. Kage thinks it's foolish that I consider myself a friend of Akito. Very very foolish.

But I deem her wrong! It is good to be friends with everybody even if most of my friends tend to dwell on the dangerous side of things... Hehe. It's not my fault I attract all kinds of people. Especially the ruder ones. I'm just severely special that way. Yep. That's why I attract them... I've got to admit, it's kind of creepy though.

Like SASUKE! Yep. He's all cold to me. Burrr. But he's cold to everyone. Moi, moi. So sad. If I could tackle him without getting glared at, I would. Yep. Because he always looks like he needs a hug. Gaara needs a hug too. I haven't seen him in a loooong time. I miss him. >_< I miss all of my peoplez. I remember Sin! He rocked meh sox! And he protected me from the ebil person who wanted to hurt or humiliate me or whatever.

I miss him. Him and his cloak.

He was mister Fuzzy-Wuzzles... The awesome cloaked guy!

I almost feel sorry for trying to catch him on fire... but he wouldn't let me see what was under all that stuff he wore. He even wore a long sleeve shirt and pantz. In the SUMMER! I'm too curious to not try and find out the reason. He shouldn't act so mysterious... That's why it's his fault and not mine. Nuh uh. Not mine at all...

Kage completely disagrees with me and said I shouldn't listen to the curious side of me. It'll get me killed... Hehehe. Oh! Let's play the what-if game...

What if...

Sin came back?
-- I'd huggle and love him forever!
I saw Tithe?
-- I'd tackle him; ask questions later.
Sasuke was nice to me?
-- I'd be shocked... then tackle him.
Sasuke hugged me?
-- o.o I'd be scared. Then I'd start asking, 'who are you and what have you done with Sasuke?!' Yep. Creepy.
I saw mother's ghost?
-- ...I'd be sad...
Tithe didn't care?
-- That'd hurt. A lot.

Well, no more What if... games for me. I'll play more next time, okay? Okay. Hmm. I have strange questions. But really! If Sasuke hugged you wouldn't you freak? It'd be like... you're sooo not Sasuke. Sasuke'd never hug me. It's a creepy question. It scares me. And Tithe cares at least a little for me right? I mean... we grew up together and everything... And he's more like me then my other siblings...

Oh well. I'll find out when I see him again. Well I guess this is where I say goodbye! See ya oh fateful one...

++ Peace out! ~ forbid

[Forbid Jaganshi]

Thursday, the Fifth Day of the Seventh Month; in Two Thousand Seven. Two Fifteen in the Morning.

Located in the Dungeons. I shouldn't be here. Hehe.

Dear Diary BOB,

HA! I have returned to write in your secret depths. Guess where I hide you? I'd tell you but I always feel like I'm being watched so... yeah... Think hard BOB, think hard. rofl. Don't I rock? Of course I do! Guess what? I dragged Gaara off to eat ice cream with me. :3 Ice cream is very much with the awesome-ness. It even tastes good! Yep-yep. We were getting stared at. O.o Creepy people... But we make fairies jealous so it's okay!

Know what else? I was talking to myself before he got there. Yeah. And I got stared at. Do I always attract that kind of attention? Duuude. I didn't know that... I'll just hide behind Sasuke or Gaara and try not to attract stares. Yep. They can protect me! Kage is starting to doubt Gaara though for some reason... She said he can't protect me from Akito. Bleh. Bad her. She's not allowed to doubt meh boyfriend. Humph. >.<

Wanna hear what she has to say? Well here we go. And I solely promise not to scribble out anything she writes. Yep. Completely and totally promise not to. *cough* Here we go than!

Ahem. You want to hear what I have to say BOB? Oh god. I'm going crazy. I'm talking to a diary. Jeez. I need a psychiatrist or something similar to that. Anything to make the craziness go away... Forbid is allowing me to write things so why not write...

Anyhow, I don't trust Gaara to take care of Forbid. He can't protect her. She doesn't understand that. Heck. It's reached the point that I trust that stuck-up Uchiha more than I trust him. Now that is when you know you've reached a new low with me. At least the Uchiha protects her though. He even kind of-sort of threatened Akito about the whole touching her thing. My god. I really do sound like Forbid.

And she tells me that I'm wrong. Of course, Akito is still up at the top of my hate / despise list. Evil little... person-thing. And now is the time to rant constantly about Xanthe. You don't know who that is. Nobody knows who that is. Do you want to know? Xanthe is the... least friendly out of us and I'd suggest leaving her be in her slumber. I don't know when she'll awaken nor do I want her to. That would lead to... trouble.

She's strange. Not Forbid strange; a different strange.

I know I promised not to scribble out anything that she said... but I couldn't help it! She makes everything sound so mean. Bad Kage. Bad. But she did mention Xanthe... You can just ignore that. It isn't that important; honestly. Anyhow, let's talk about Sakura Haruno. She has one large crush on Sasuke and I don't think she likes me too much. Nuh uh. >.< Actually, I think she hates me. A lot.

I guess I have to talk to her huh? Talking solves everything. Not really... I wonder if she would be mad if I owled her to pay me a visit? I mean, I have to talk to her at some point. And she can't stay mad at me forever right? I don't go out with Sasuke or anything; I have Gaara... Mew. All of this is giving me a headache. I don't feel like playing the What If... game right now. Bleh. I'll play next time. Oh! I have a few more things...

To Do List // Dude! I have one of these...

+ Get a white female kitty
+ Talk to Sakura DONE
+ Change Kage's opinion about Gaara // impossible to complete

++ Peace out! ~ forbid

[Forbid Jaganshi]

Thursday, the Twelfth Day of the Seventh Month; in Two Thousand Seven. Four Fourty-Five in the Morning.

Located in the Hallways. I shouldn't be here either.

Dear Diary BOB,

Well... I have new information for you. I don't think a bit of it can be qualified as "good" information. At least... not really. I went to see Sakura. Whee! That... didn't exactly go as planned. I'm not allowed to see Sasuke anymore. That hurts. A lot. I mean, Sasuke was a... friend really. And now I can't see him anymore. From what I know, he rarely considers anyone even well, worthy of his time I guess. At least he'll hang out with me. I find that kind of laughable though, y'know? I'm sort of... annoying...

I have no idea why anyone, espcially someone like him, would want to be around me of all people. I miss him already.

How in the seven layers of hell am I supposed to avoid him and ignore him? Ignoring people just seems so... rude. Than again, so does avoiding him. And that wouldn't be easy since I have to know where he is to do that. Knowing where he is is one of those tasks I consider impossible for me to complete. So... I could just tell him why I can't talk to him anymore... right? Owl him? I wouldn't have to meet him face-to-face. Unless he requested it. Right?

Man... I guess Kage was right when she said I was pathetic... I can't even go through with this all the way without consulting him. I'd even come to him if he wanted to talk to me... I suck sooo bad. Do I need to stop putting myself down? >=[ Probably not. I always do it anyhow. No one would care. I make peoples life worse. Should I exist? Would foster mummy and foster daddy have lived if I wasn't born? Would actual mummy and daddy have lived?

I need to stop thinking about this stuff. It'll just kill off what brain cells I have. Ha. Ha. Ha. So very funny aren't I? Oohh... I need to start on that letter soon don't I? Yeah. I intend to write one. And owl him. It's going to turn out to be a disaster. Just you wait and see... A complete and total disaster.

This will be my shortest entry yet. Sad. Well... see ya... I guess...

To-Do List

+ Write a letter to Sasuke. Owl it. DONE
+ Get a white kitty.

++ Peace out! ~ forbid

P.S. I don't like my situation...

P.S.S. I found a list... O.o

10. Find a dark and moody boy. Kiss him.
9. Teach the Giant Squid how to sing.
8. Go into the Forbidden Forest with a professor and proceed to get lost.
7. Have a very inappropriate and aggressive crush on your Potions professor.
6. Get food poisoning in History of Magic class.
5. Become a part of an under-ground student revolution against the staff. Use code names like "Colonel Mustard" or "Miss Scarlet"
4. Search for the burping trash can.
3. Late night truth or dare competitions.
2. Eat cookies. Always eat the cookies
1. Befriend a house elf. They bring the best cookies.

...I'm gonna do them... Maybe they'll lighten my mood...

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{[ credit for list to Aaryn Saeumi + this place ]}

[Forbid Jaganshi]

Tuesday, the Last Day of the Seventh Month; in Two Thousand Seven. Seven Fifty-Five at Night.

Located in the Muggle Electronics Room.

Dear Diary BOB,

...Hmm... The last time I wrote in here was... on the twelfth. Long time ago, huh? I've come to a breaking decision. I'll forget about Sasuke. Simple. Well not really but we can pretend it is. I haven't seen him in about a month so... that shouldn't be too hard, correct? I mean, and I might not fully forget about him what with having a collar that has his name on it. Oh! And he has a similar one only without the added dog tag, credit of moi. I'm sure Kage still isn't ecstatic over this turn of events. She doesn't even like that I chose to do this in the first place. I told her I was sorry but it's for best. She didn't listen. Since when did she ever listen? Rhetorical.

Besides that I haven't seen Sakura either. Or Akito. Or Gaara. I think Gaara had been debating leaving the school... Maybe he finally decided to leave. It would have been nice if he had consulted me first. Said goodbye... But nobody ever says goodbye... I deem it the bane of everyone's existence since they all refuse to speak it. Akito-san... well I don't know what happened to him. I miss him though Kage still thinks I'm crazy for that. I don't mind not seeing Sakura. She's no doubt happier now that I'm not talking nor seeing Sasuke anymore. Kage said she's a female dog. I won't cuss so that goes down instead. It was either that or "nice person". I prefer the other.

Not much else has been going on though. I've been attempting to attend all classes. Including my extra ones. I don't even know why I sign up for those each term but I do. Even with my low attendance rate. And god is it low. The best I can do is show up for class. The rest of it I'm either half-listening or zonked out. Kage thinks I need a break. Like go home or something. Oh. Wait. What am I saying? Home? Ha! I don't have one. My home would consist of an Orphanage until I hit eighteen or whatever. For now they think I'm going to some highly praised boarding school. Muggles. I have to agree with Kage on the fact that they're quite blind to all things magical. Only the small children believe in magic.

This sure is taking me a long time to write... I keep staring off into space. At least I have music to listen to while I'm here. It's currently Panic! At the Disco's; But It's Better If You Do. I love that song but I love a lot of music. So it's no surprise. My head hurts too though and I've got no one to talk to. Everyone just disappears after a while of being around me. I hate it. I guess that's why I don't keep friends. Sad... I wonder if those idiotic counsel people are still trying to get Tithe and myself to come back there. Probably. I don't think they care much for our education.

That reminds me, Tithe-kun hasn't been around much lately either. Poof. What'd I tell you? I guess out of them all I miss Sasuke most though I swear I won't cry over him anymore. No matter how depressed I am or may act. I promise it to myself and to Kage. Crying does me no good. It turns my eyes red and keep me from sleep for a while. Ahh...

To Do List
+ Get a white female kitten.
+ Stop crying over Sasuke.
+ Attempt to forget about him.
+ Be a happy little bumblebee.

++ Peace out! ~ forbid

[Forbid Jaganshi]

Wednesday, the Twenty-Second day of the Eighth Month; in Two Thousand Seven. Sometime in the Afternoon.

Located in the Dormitory of the Mihaels.

Dear Diary BOB,

You know what just kick in? I'll tell you. SASUKE KISSED ME!!!! See the exclamation marks? That means I need a vacation. A loooong vacation. Or maybe it means my mind is just finally processing this whole kissing-thing. ... I need a vacation. My head hurts... and for some unexplainable reason I feel like punching Sasuke... That isn't normal. Maybe it's carrying over from Kage's feelings. She keeps telling me though that I shouldn't give up on everything, yeah? To be more specific; she told me I should "go after" Sasuke. <ahem> And get KILLED?! ... ... ... I'm calm. I swear. My mind... just... died... or something. Sorry. I have to do this again.

SASUKE KISSED ME!!!!

... Okay. I'm alright now. Swear. That's just... sticking very well to my brain. Like extremely annoying super glue. But... but... it's not normal. And... and... I GIVE! Ano, is this where I cower in dark corners? Bleh. I need to talk to Sasuke don't I? I mean... I guess I can't just let this pass by without a word. You don't just kiss someone and then ignore it... There's a lot of denial in that. Sadly I don't know what I'd say to him. My brains are scrambled with the whole kiss thing on my mind at all times and... shoot.

Ah, off of this subject then. I adopted a kitten whom I named Akito. Female. White. Very pretty. I don't know if Suke will like her very much though. He doesn't seem to like anyone. And I couldn't help naming her Akito! I like using my friends names for my pets... I need to get a raccoon and name him Gaara now. Hehe. Slowly I will 'collect' everyone! ...Except myself... because that'd be strange. Almost as strange as when I ran through the halls yelling for Sasuke. Sasuke kitty that is. Hehe... BUT! We shalt not worry about such things. Nope. Nuh uh. I will refrain from thinking about teh kissy-moment and will only think of other things until I see Sasuke again. Or something like that. Shoot. Again. This is just going smashing.

OH!! The LIST!

10. Find a dark and moody boy. Kiss him.
9. Teach the Giant Squid how to sing.
8. Go into the Forbidden Forest with a professor and proceed to get lost.
7. Have a very inappropriate and aggressive crush on your Potions professor.
6. Get food poisoning in History of Magic class.
5. Become a part of an under-ground student revolution against the staff. Use code names like "Colonel Mustard" or "Miss Scarlet"
4. Search for the burping trash can.
3. Late night truth or dare competitions.
2. Eat cookies. Always eat the cookies
1. Befriend a house elf. They bring the best cookies.

I wonder if kissing Sasuke counts... but it says to kiss whoever it is... I didn't kiss him... he kissed me... So it doesn't count? Crud-zilla. And here I was trying to actually finish this. Somehow. Someway. OH CRUD! I'm not suppose to think about Sasuke and teh kissy-moment either and... Forget it. I just need to shut up and take a nap. Yeah... a nap sounds nice... Nighty-night!

++ Peace out! ~ forbid

To Do List
+ Get a white female kitten. DONE
+ Stop crying over Sasuke. DONE
+ Attempt to forget about him. ALMOST;; he came back...
+ Be a happy little bumblebee. ALMOST;; ...Sasuke...
+ Talk to Sasuke. [IMPORTANT]