Tainted Love-Events of the Notorious Shayne Kain

[Shayne Kain]

TheTainted Love Version of the Notrious Shayne Kain

Sunday, July 29,

Dear Sinister Journal:
What is going on with me? Why is Adrien coming back into my life? Today has been an another stupid day, but recent events have been interesting. I have found myself in the presence of Lillian Ann on more then on occasion. I don't know what it is about this girl, but she seems to have a knack at figuring me out. It has been quite a long time since I have actually had a friend...I have been lonely for a long time, but of course you know this already.

The lyrics of the muggle artist named Marilyn Manson fills my head with the song Tainted Love. I don't understand its meaning to me. I just don't know anymore. Training is harder and harder. I am getting frustrated with the world. I can't rid Adrien from my presence even he wants something. Understanding what I must do is hard. I am doing my very best in all the classes as I promised Professor Yates. I just hope he returns in time so I can learn Occulemency...but I just really want to study more magic. I am becoming very talented at wordless magic. I am curious on knowing how to become an elemental and wandless magic...like my father before me.

I don't know what to do with Sarah...She knows how I feel about her and everything. I love her so much, I just don't know how to get out bond closer. I know we can become closer. Her affection is nice, but it feels more like a friend basis and not a girlfriend. I will continue trying though. She the love of my life and I have to make things work just right. I know this journal looks almost exactly like my father's second cousin, Tom Riddle's, but I think it looks cool. I had a little encounter with a some girls, but that is no big deal.

Shayne Kain

[Shayne Kain]

[glow=red,2,300]Tainted Love[/glow]

Tuesday, July 31

Dear Sinister Journal:

I feel rather lonly. I don't know why. I mind has been scattered lately. I don't tell of many events, but of something I did take into account. What is becoming of me now? I am starting to wonder about what my father is up too. I know it may seem a little odd, but I just have a bad feeling about it. My love for Sarah is growing rapidly inside me again. Why though? Is it just me that had a problem? My emotions are starting to get out of control, but I thought I had control of my empathy...

I have had it pretty easy. I have continued my training on wordless magic. I think I am getting it pretty well. I am sure that Professor Yates would have been proud to know that I am still taking to obtain a way to learn Occlumency like my father before me. I wish there was someway I could get it done faster. I think my only option is Professor Hoarce Slughorn, but I do admire him greatly. I have spoken with Lillian in quite some time. I am starting to get worried about her. I have been meeting some people now and then, but I am not too sure how to obtain my goal...

My emotions for all these different people are hard not to mix up, but I am doing it well. I only hope that I can get the nerve to eventually ask Sarah to marry me... I don't know though. I love her, but I am still unsure of what she might come up with and say. I know we aren't very old, but when I get out of school and start to become an Auror, we might not be able to spend that much time together...It worries me so much that she is going to get into trouble that I can't stop...Gosh. Enough about this stupid worries. I must be off.

Shayne Kain

[Shayne Kain]

[glow=blue,2,300]The Veil[/glow]

Augest 8th

Dear Sinister Minister Psycho Journal:

Some weird things have been going on. It seems like everyone is losing their freaking mind except for some. I confronted Lillian...She looked horrible. I don't know what she is going to do. It seems that Lils isn't up for handling Lillian's mind any more. I just don't know what the heck I am going to do if she turns on me... I guess there is only one way to actually know. Monica has also been acting a little weird. She was very aggressive to me in the Room of Requirement...I found that quite odd, but I understand where she is coming from to a point...

Ah, I found a ring...A Kain family heirloom ring...The initials changed as soon as I put it on my finger... It was weird. It was as if it was trying to call Adrien out from my mind and if I wouldn't have been able to take it off I am sure that he would have complete control of my body as long as the ring was on... I don't know what to do with it... Also I might be getting back into private lessons with the Dueling Tactics Professor. I find that very interesting as I am curious to know more. Ah and my Animagus class is coming along alright. I just hope my animagus form isn't too insane.

Last of all....Sarah...She invited me to live with her after school. I was so freaking psyched I barely was able to make a quick witted remark. She thinks it is time so I guess it is. It is going to be a blast! I just hope she will vaction with me in Chicago sometime....ah...which leads to the ultimate thought... when am I going to ask her? Time is on my side, but it has been awhile. I don't remember when we first starting dating. I thought it was at the beginning of my third term which was about nine or so months ago...Gosh... I guess I am going to have to pull myself together...

The Notorious
Shayne Kain

[Shayne Kain]

[glow=green,2,300]Change[/glow]

Monday, Augest 20

Dear Sinister Journal:

Dang I have been having it quite rough recently. I was attacked by some dang wolves with Monica and would have been killed if it wasn't for Adrien! Isn't that nuts? It makes me think though. Adrien is just a part of me so why should we be two seperate? What would happen if my goodness and his evil mixed to create a more neutral me? How bad could it be? I don't know...

The beast that attacked me did leave some nasty scars on my left shoulder. If Monica wouldn't have been there to get me up to the Hospital Wing I would have just passed if off as a minor wound. I guess I owe her much more now. Lillian is acting very strange. I can't see what it is, but I will. The strenght of the Kain bloodline will preveil. She didn't understand when I told her that the challange was no more, but she will soon find out.

I actually miss Sarah to a degree that it is hard to wake up and not see her. It is really starting to effect my training. I think I better get my butt off to see her sometime. I love that girl and dang it she will know it for the rest of her life. I only hope I live that long..she is a vampire after all...I will probably die way before she does... I need a way to change that... Somehow...

The Notorious
Shayne Kain