[ 401 ] Shaman's Blues

[Harmony Lupin]

Come with me dance, my dear
Winter's so cold this year

It wasn't too long ago. That night, when Harmony had found herself locating a local muggle bar that she had been to many times before. She had ordered herself an alcoholic drink, her black coat rested solemnly over the back of her chair. It was a simple enough plan - drink yourself to the bottom of a bottle, and forget him forever. Though she knew she could never be able to forget him forever, she knew she could get him out of that place in her heart. No doubt he would always have a spot there in that small organ of hers, but never again will he be able to say that it belonged to him and only him. That was the plan, until a friend walked back into her life.

It seemed innocent enough. He sat down across from her, Harmony barely being able to take any hits form her drink. She was lonely, and he was entertaining. The two exchanged laughs, they exchanged stories and thoughts, opinions on different topics. They even had a chance to compare biceps in the middle of the pub. But what was not expected was the near collision of lips. What was not expected was for Harmony to run out without given him a chance to speak, nor for them to talk about what almost happened. And now, she stood in front of the door to his flat, her mind racing around her head, and her heart sinking into her stomach.

Her clothes where somewhat different form the last time Harmony saw Shadow. She was still in a pair of jeans, they being ripped in several places and held together by safety pins. Her shirt was white, skin tight and long sleeve as it usually was this time of year. It read the doors across it [ a band that was probably Harmony's favorite ], and her classic black converse covered her feet. Her long black jacket had not changed, and the rings that rested on her fingers and the necklace around her neck where the same as well. Her right hand viciously played with the ring resting on her pointer finger on her left hand, a nervous habit. Dare she knock?

She almost walked away. But there would be no sense of satisfactory in that. She would just be running away - again. swallowing her pride she lifted her hand to the door, and knocked three times.

Thump.Thump.Thump.

You are so warm, My wintertime love to be

[Shadow LeonHeart]

[red]The slower I carve my name into your heart, the more it hurts that we're both falling apart. He had told himself that countless time since he was younger. Every time he got close to someone and they drifted apart. It hurt him a lot of the times. He never wanted to feel that pain. Though, he always had to. The desertion from his biological family helped that. His adopted family faking their deaths pushed it even further. No matter how many times he got hurt, it still hurt every time.

This had been the first time in awhile he was in his flat. The magical side was nothing special. It looked pretty much like any magical room. The muggle side was pretty much what he loved in the room. The basic muggle stuff, really. But, his favorite part was his collection of Trivium things. Posters, CDs, shirts, you name it. He had everything Trivium. Obsessed? Pretty much.

His hair dangling in his face, not in any rush to move it, he sat on his bed thinking. Why did he do what he did in the Half Crown? He was still trying to figure it out. But, why did Harmony just rush out of there like that? He hadn't talked to her about it. And he really wanted to talk about it, too. He didn't want to lose his friendship with her over it.

A knock at the door made him lift his head up. He had never had anyone knock at his door. Getting off the bed and walking towards the door, he wondered who it would be. Wearing his famous baggy black shorts and his black muscle shirt, he opened the door, only to see something beautiful.

His eyes widened slightly when he saw her. He didn't expect this. He was lost for words.[/red]

[Harmony Lupin]

As she waited for the door to open, a lot of things where going through her mind. What did she fell for Shadow - and what exactly was there? She truly had no idea. Her mind was just a pile of nothing at the moment, and she was acting on gut feeling. It was a wonder that she was able to even teach her classes. Either way, she knew one thing was for sure ,and that was that she had to come see him. It had been several days since they where in the Half Crown, and they had to talk about it, whether it led down a horrible road or not.

Biting her bottom lip solemnly, Harmony thought of Eric for a moment. He was gone, but what if he ever did come back - and she was with Shadow? That would be oh so awkward. She shook her head. No no, he's gone, and my heart is no longer his she told herself in thought, forcing him from her mind. She heard a few noises coming from behind the door, her eyes moving to the door handle, waiting for it to turn, and then the door to open. She pushes her bangs from her eyes, which was a failure. Her hair was parted to the side after all, they just fell right back into place.

When Shadow arrived at the front of the door, Harmony stood, giving a small smile, her hands still placing viciously with each other, her teeth still nibbling on her bottom lip. He didn't say a word, and for a few moments she didn't either. After a few moments of silence, she cleared her throat. "Ello Shadow" she said, her voice mellow and warm, like it always was. "Can I - can I come in for a bit?"

[Shadow LeonHeart]

[red]((The post is gonna be crap 'cause I've got a bit of things to do at the moment.))

She decided to come now? When he was fully pale again, his eyes dark again, and everything. He didn't know why it had taken her this long to come and see him about this. If he was able to go on school grounds he would've went and talked to her about it. What he really wanted to know is why she just left that quickly without even giving an excuse. Hopefully he'd find out right now.

Shadow pushed the door fully open and moved to the side. "Yeah, sure." He really didn't know what to say right now. The former Mihael closed the door behind Harmony when she walked in. "Want anything to drink?" Not once in his life had he been this nervous. And he wasn't even sure why he was nervous. There really wasn't anything to be nervous about. Something has changed Shadow from this tough, macho guy who didn't care about anything, to becoming the calm, gentle person who actually cared. And he didn't like it.[/red]

[Harmony Lupin]

[[ Tis fine, dear. ]]

The time you ran was too insane
We'll meet again, we'll meet again

Harmony actually had reasons for running out without a reason that night. She also had reasons why it took so long for her to get back to him. To be honest, it was one reason and I'm sure everyone knew what it was, even Shadow. Still, she supposed she could have come to him sooner, but her mind still was in no condition to talk to him about it. Even know she wasn't sure she could comfortably. Harmony can handle it though - she teaches a bunch of teenagers all day, she can handle just about anything.

Nodding as Shadow told her she could come in, Harmony walked past him into his flat, her muscles that where once tense now relaxing a bit. She assumed that if he didn't want to talk to her at all he would have said so before, so at lest she got this far. Turning behind her she glanced over her shoulder as the door shut. No turning back now. You have to face it. she thought to herself, looking back around his flat. She grinned a bit at all the Trivium merchandise. She was going to say something, but it might have been a little bit out of line at the moment. Keeping her mouth shut she looked to Shadow, who had addressed her once again.

"Oh. Erm, no thank you" she told him, peeling her jacket off her bones and placing it down where she could find a spot. Where to start, where to start. This was going to be awkward. "I was hoping we could...talk" she started, taking a seat on the sofa. "About what happened, at the Half crown?" she mused.

[Shadow LeonHeart]

[red]She seemed just as nervous as he was. She seemed to be struggling to find words. At least she could find words. Shadow nodded at the mention of the Half Crown. "I really don't know what came over me, Harmony." Just like a doll he faltered. He didn't want to say something wrong. That's the last thing he needs right now. All he could do was wait and hear what she had to say.

((Damn writer's block. Damn it to hell.))[/red]

[Harmony Lupin]

Harmony's nerves where a train wreck. But alas, she made her best attempt to keep them from interfering with the conversation Harmony was about to embark on. Upon Shadow's actions and words, Harmony made the assumption that he was more nervous then she was. She grinned a bit, looking to him. "It's fine Shadow, really." she told him, thinking that an apology might have come next, but no words seemed to flow from his lips. Pondering a bit, she glanced to the empty seat beside her on the sofa. "Take a seat dear" she told him, patting the cushion next to her on the Sofa.

Clearing her throat, she spoke again. "I wanted to first apologize to you.." she told him. "I didn't mean to run out so quickly as I did, giving you the wrong impression. But truth be told, that was probably the worst night to make that attempt" she grinned a bit, not wanting to the mood to be completely and utterly down. "The reason why I had went there was to Forget Eric...but then you came. The original plan was the Alcohol, but you where a much better substitute" she smiled at him, shrugging a bit. "I don't know..I just thought it'd be best to discuss the whole thing"

[Shadow LeonHeart]

[red]A slight smile slithered its way onto his face as Harmony motioned for him to sit next to her. As he was walking over there, he wondered if she could tell how nervous he was. He sat next to her and his muscles tense up slightly. It was pretty awkward sitting next to her right now because of the whole Half Crown thing. But at least he now knew her reasoning for leaving.

"I completely understand, Harmony. I don't blame you at all." Well, that was sort of a lie. She didn't have to leave. She could've just told him to stop and he probably would have. He looked at her beautiful face, smiling. "I blame myself, really. Something just came over me at that moment. I don't know what it was, either."[/red]

[Harmony Lupin]

The awkwardness between the two was something Harmony really was hoping wouldn't happen, but she supposed that it was only natural, considering what happened between the two. She couldn't help but wonder though - if she hadn't run out so quickly, or if she did kiss him - would it be different then it is now? Naturally, of course. Though she was happy that she did leave before the kiss. If she left after word it would be a lot more difficult to actually talk to him right now. Giving a smile as he sat down. Harmony nodded.

"I guess I just..kind of freaked?" she said, not too sure herself why she had to run out so quickly. Panic, she supposed. She shrugged, looking at Shadow confused. "don't blame yourself, please" she assure him, giving a small grin. "To be honest, if that was any other night, I probably would have done the same thing." she told him, looking down to the bottom of her shirt for a moment before looking back at shadow. Butterflies.

[Shadow LeonHeart]

[red]To be honest, if that was any other night, I probably would have done the same thing. At first, he didn't realize what Harmony had said and all he did was nod. After he realized what she said, his eyes widened. Did she.....there was no way. There was no way that she felt the same way he felt about her. How could someone that beautiful fall for someone like Shadow? It just didn't seem logical.

He could see her face everywhere. He could hear her voice everywhere. She was the only thing on his mind. It had been awhile since someone other than Rainne was on his mind. And it was a welcomed thing. He didn't want to dwell on the past any longer. It was all too depressing.

Looking deep into Harmony's eyes, his lips started making their way towards her lips. But, he was able to resist it this time and he pulled back, hoping she didn't noticed.

((Not the best. But, it's all I could think of.))[/red]