forever and always,

[Selene Falicon]

.01

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

Robert Frost

[Selene Falicon]

.02

Dear Diary,

I dunno why I'm writing in you, or why I even kept you for so long. Mom gave you to me so long ago, I'm surprised I never trashed you or gave you to Clara. Well, now that's out of my system, I'm not really sure what to write about. I've been coming to school for a few weeks now, but I just recently found out that my classes aren't counting towards graduating yet. Apparently we're on break or something like that. I don't really know...

I haven't really met anyone yet. I've been trying to avoid most people, actually. I think I've officially reached my new clumsiest week ever! I've been so tired and stressed that I've been tripping a lot more than usual. I guess I should get more sleep, but it's hard when I think about Clara being at home. Maybe I'll write to her in the next couple days. I miss her so much!

Well, I know I haven't written much, but I think I'm gonna go write that letter to Clara now. I'll try and write in you tomorrow , er, later.

Forever and Always,
Selene

[Selene Falicon]

.03
5 May 2009

Dear Diary,

I decided I should probably start dating these, just in case I ever feel like reading this sometime. I doubt that will happen, but you never know. I'd rather be safe than sorry...

Well, not much has been happening. I wrote that letter to Clara yesterday, but she hasn't written back yet. I'm anxious to get a response from her! That is, if she does respond. I hope she does, because otherwise she won't be able to write me until the next time I send a letter, and what if she needs me before then?! Maybe I'll just start writing to her everyday, just to be safe. I'm so worried about her! Maybe I should buy her an owl so she can write me anytime. There's no way she can keep that from dad, though. Oh well. We'll figure something out...

I had a nightmare last night, but it wasn't anything new. I'm just happy I haven't woken up any of my roommates yet. At least, I don't think I have. They all seem nice enough, but I don't talk to them very often. They always seem busy, or I'm studying when they come in. Plus, I go to bed early, so they try to be quiet when they come in, but they always wake me up. I don't mind, though. It's not that big of a deal.

Well, I don't relaly have anything else to say. I'll try to remember to write in here tomorrow.

Forever and Always,
Selene

[Selene Falicon]

.04
11 September 2009

Dear Diary,

Well, I forgot about writing in here. Surprise, surprise. I mean, it's only been about four months. Wow. I pretty much suck. Oh well, I just do my best to remember from now on.

So a few days ago, I met this boy named Lukas. He was really interesting. We played a question-answer game, and it only made me more confused about him. Sometimes he would seem normal, but other times... I don't really know how to describe it. What he said just wouldn't make sense. I wish I could remember his exact words, but I just can't. Then the most amazing thing happened. He kissed me. It was amazing, and I loved it!

But I made him stop. I mean, I'd only met him that day. I don't know what's gotten into me. He just seemed so nice, even if he was a little odd. He guessed about Dad, but I told him he was wrong. He dropped the subject, but I think he'll bring it up again, if he ever talks to me again. It seems like most people ignore me after they talk to me for more than a few minutes.

I just hope Dad doesn't find out about him. I can't risk sending a letter to Clara to tell her, but I'm leaving to go home tomorrow, as much as I don't want to. I just need to see Clara and make sure everything is alright with her. She hasn't sent me a letter in a while, and I miss her. I only wish I didn't have to see Dad. I guess I can't get everything I want...

Well, I better go. I need to get to sleep. Tomorrow's gonna be a big day.

Forever and Always,
Selene