MASQUERADE; paper faces on parade

[Ashlan la Barre]

JUST A PHANTOM;;


Excerpts from the diary of Ashlan la Barre, a young girl bound to duty.
These are her private thoughts – things she would never dare say aloud.
Other characters and NPCs could be mentioned at random…
In total, there are seven other diaries in this legacy of hers.
Ashlan has kept and filled books with her thoughts since her ninth year, at her grandfather’s request.
Whether or not there is anything for her to say, she does her best to honor him.

[Ashlan la Barre]

I cannot believe the insanity of others.
A psycho is running around Hogwarts, I would swear by my life.

If only I could act how I should...

I'm off to dinner. I'm not hungry.


AB

[Ashlan la Barre]

I may have been hasty, diary -- though, when have I ever been rational when alone? It seems that Jasper is not insane, merely misguided. From what he tells me of his family, I can see where his quirks come from. Horrible, rotten parents.

Is abuse accepted nowadays?


AB

[Ashlan la Barre]

I never thought I would have to pay for information?
Nor did I think I would ever want to.

[Ashlan la Barre]

Ugh, I do some stupid things.
Maybe its best if I just disappear for a while -- gather my thoughts.
I can't go home to do that.

[Ashlan la Barre]

I know he meant well but that was gross.
I really do not need a sweaty shirt being shoved in my face...
I feel bad though -- he was only helping..

[Ashlan la Barre]

Things are ending; I am not sure I want to go home.
But there is nothing else for me.
Completely inevitable.

I wonder if a diary can capture a sigh?

[Ashlan la Barre]

What is he up to now?
I thought I would get to relax over the break!

[Ashlan la Barre]

There is an ache in my neck, I think from staring up for so long.

Just to end it all..
How could he have thought that?
Do I seem so depressed?
That's not good... not good at all if people perceive me as suicidal.
I'm content.

Where is the crime?

[Ashlan la Barre]

I don't want to think about this.
It is my perogative to be with who I want.

Uriah gave me the ring tonight.
Official much?
I need to be alone.

[Ashlan la Barre]

You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without.

I should just stop reading.

[Ashlan la Barre]

I can only hope classes will take my mind off things.
Or Helena 'H' can help too.